me is me...

Update

2009-05-30T10:55:00.002+08:00

It has been like donkey months since I update this blog...

Hi all...

I am still surviving.
And I am left with just 2 more weeks of service for the SAF.

=)

What's next, people always ask me.

My reply is I dunnoe...

=)

2009-03-13T10:24:00.000+08:00

Dead At 79

From Heart Attack

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Updates

2009-02-03T19:57:00.004+08:00

hello all.

Wishing you a Happy Chinese New Year.
Hey I am not late in wishing all of you, as this is still the new year.
There are 15 days to the Lunar New Year.

Just to update all of you is that I am currently still in service towards the nation.
In somewhere I believe is the north of Singapore.

I apologized to those who have been hammering me to go out or meet up with them, as I am really busy with lots and lots of stuff. (mainly army stuff)
Haha.

True NS has drained a lot of my time and wonderful sleep.
This is so irritating.
But I believe that I can still survive until 15 June 2009.
Heehee.
Since I have survived for long.

With all the recession and professionals saying on all national medias that this year is a hard year.
Yes, it is indeed a hard year. But I believe although we r in this dark moments, we still have to survive.
But the question now is how can we when everything ard us is terrible?

We looked everywhere. But we don't looked up.
We turned to all sorts of things around us, trying to search for the formula for this depression.
But we are not looking up.

there's somebody up there, waving at us and wanting us to look at HIM.
HE is just there.
And HE is the formula to all these crisis.

GOD is there, ready to help us, ready to bless us with all that we asked from HIM.
But we are just looking ard, trying to use our human knowledge to solve things.

Friends, I just hope that during this period of time, why not lets hold our hands together and look upwards. Look upon our heavenly father. Asked for his blessings.
And let all of us be blessed in his name.

This is a message that I received during last sunday sermon.
And it is true.

HE has plans for us.

Hallelujah.

I realised I have side track as I am suppose to give an update about myself.
haha.
Sorry. It just came and I have to write it down.

Currently I am still writing my script.
Another emotion driven story.
Less speech and more emotions.

I still have no idea when will it be out.
So got to wait.

Education for Lasalle is quite heavy in terms of the dollar dollar sign.
It is like S$21K per year and it is a 3 years Bachelor course which adds up to a good S$63K.
Just pray that I could really study and get myself a Bachelor Degree in Filmmaking.
As Lasalle is the school that I somehow fall in love with now in Singapore.

This year is very weird for me.
Something in me tells me to reach out for people.
I am linking it with videos that I am going to produce.
Wonder is that a calling for me?

haha.

If you are interested, join me in this prayer for the whole situation.

Dear Heavenly father,

I pray that this year will be a better year for me, my family, my friends, my loved ones, and all. Although the professionals, mathematicians, and some other predicted that this year might be worst that the GREAT DEPRESSION that we have experienced.

But I have faith that LORD, you are able to pull me out from all these problems as you are always there for me. LORD, I surrender all of my thoughts to you. As human thoughts leads me to searching for the answer to solve the current situation.

Now I know that you are the only person that I can depend on. Lead me to your way, LORD. As I have been so foolish. Searching everything, except you. LORD, bless me with all your blessings.

LORD, thank you for everything and I pray for my family, and my friends. Bless all of us health.

Thank you, LORD.

and in Jesus name I pray.

Amen.

ok, Thanks for the time spend in reading my blog entries.
heehee.

Have a nice day.
GOD bless.

Father's Love Letter website

2009-02-03T18:56:00.001+08:00

This website and the materials in it had touched me.

I will like to share with all of you. and click here to bring you to the website.

God bless.

Father's Love Letter

2009-02-03T18:41:00.000+08:00

Your Father’s Heart

2009-02-01T10:10:00.001+08:00

Matthew 7:11
11If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him!

Let me tell you a true story I heard. There was a pastor whose young child was diagnosed with cancer. The day his boy was scheduled for an operation, this father cried out to God, “God, I’m almost 30 years old, but my boy is only about three months old. Why don’t you just take some years off my life and give them to my boy?”

Then, from deep within him, he heard the voice of God say, “I am not like that.” When the man heard that, he realized immediately that his son’s sickness was not from God. He also realized that if he, who has faults, could want his child well, how much more his heavenly Father. So he changed his prayer and said, “Father God, I come against this sickness and I ask you for healing for my child.” That day, on the operating table, the surgeons could find no trace of cancer in the child!

Today, God wants you to know that He is not the kind of Father who wants you sick and defeated, keeps you poor and wanting, refuses to provide for your needs and denies you your blessings.

When my daughter Jessica was younger, I bought a beautiful teddy bear for her. Teddy bears are her favorite toys and I could not wait to see her joy when she saw it. My joy is to see her happy. When she is sick and has difficulty sleeping at night, it hurts me to hear her cry. When she is crying, I cannot ignore her cries. I enter into her discomfort and pain even though I know that her sickness is something that will pass shortly. When she is in pain, I feel the pain too. When she is sad, I am sad too.

I believe that God gives us children to help us understand what His Father-heart is like. His joy is to enter into your joy and see you happy. If you, in spite of your faults, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good things to you when you ask Him! My prayer today is that you will know just how much your Father loves you!

Daily Devotional from New Creation Church

God Wants You Cross-Conscious

2009-01-31T21:39:00.002+08:00

1 Corinthians 2:2
2For I determined not to know anything among you except Jesus Christ and Him crucified.

The apostle Paul, in his letter to the Corinthian church, said that he determined to know nothing among them except “Jesus Christ and Him crucified”. In other words, Paul, who wrote two-thirds of the New Testament, had his mind full of Jesus and His finished work.

Beloved, God wants your mind full of the cross of Jesus. He wants you cross-conscious.

But what does it mean to be cross-conscious?

To be cross-conscious is to see Jesus, who loves you so much that He willingly died for you on the cross. To be cross-conscious is to look to Jesus, who offered His own body to be punished, so that your body can be free from all punishment.

To be cross-conscious is to fix your eyes on Jesus, who has provided for your deliverance and victory at the cross. At the cross, all your enemies were vanquished. All your diseases were destroyed. Your poverty was removed at the cross. Your sins were wiped out at the cross.

When the Israelites tasted bitterness in the waters of Marah, God showed Moses a tree, which he cast into the waters, making them sweet. (Exodus 15:23–26) The tree represents the cross, which turned the bitter waters sweet. Today, Calvary’s tree has turned your bitter situations sweet. Because of the cross, you can expect to see the bitter situations in your life made sweet!

When the Israelites were bitten by serpents in the wilderness, God told Moses to put a bronze serpent on a pole. The pole represents the cross and bronze speaks of judgment. Those who beheld the serpent on the pole lived because they saw their problem — the deadly serpent — nailed and put to death on the cross. (Numbers 21:6–9)

Today, you too will not die but live when you see all your sins judged at the cross, and with them, all your sicknesses, diseases, pains, failures and defeats! At the cross, all that is deadly in your life has been removed!

Daily Devotional from New Creation Church

The Teacher Of All Things Is In You

2009-01-30T00:33:00.001+08:00

John 14:26
26But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things…

If you are asking whom or where you can go to to get the help you need, ask no more. Just turn to God who has already promised you the Helper, the Holy Spirit whom He has sent in Jesus’ name to dwell in you.

The Holy Spirit will teach you all things. Yes, teach you all things! Do you really believe that? Or are you like some who believe that you seek God’s counsel only for spiritual things, but consult “professional” help for all other things in your life?

God does not want you to run to and rely on worldly wisdom. Now, there is nothing wrong with going to a doctor or engaging a financial consultant, but God wants you to come to Him first for counsel and direction. That is why He has sent the Holy Spirit, the Counselor (John 16:7, NIV), to teach you all things. The Holy Spirit is the Spirit of truth and He will guide you into all truth. (John 16:13)

The apostle John said, “But you have an anointing from the Holy One, and you know all things… the anointing which you have received from Him abides in you, and you do not need that anyone teach you; but as the same anointing teaches you concerning all things…” (1 John 2:20, 27)

So the way God teaches you is through the anointing within. It is a continuous anointing. In any particular situation, He is anointing you from within, teaching you by the presence or absence of His peace.

For example, a deal you are considering may sound very reasonable. But if you don’t have the peace in your spirit, don’t sign on the dotted line. Sign only when you have the peace. Be led by His peace and you will find that your heart will not be troubled, neither will it be afraid. (John 14:27)

When you follow that peace which only God can give to you as an inward witness, good things and even miracles will come forth!

Daily Devotional Link from New Creation Church (Singapore)

God Is For You, Not Against You

2009-01-30T00:31:00.000+08:00

Romans 8:31
31What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?

Are you faced with challenges in your life right now? Are you having marital problems and financial woes? Maybe your child is going astray or an old illness has returned. What then will you say to all these things?

Do you know what God wants you to say? He wants you to say, “If God is for me, who can be against me?”

If you knew that the President or the Prime Minister was for you, you might believe that everything will be okay. But you have an even better backing! The Bible tells us that God, the Almighty, the Creator of the heavens and the earth, is for you! What problem can fasten its grip on you when the Almighty God is for you? Can the devil come successfully against you with God on your side?

If God is for you today, if God is for you right now, you don’t have to moan, “If only I had this… If only I didn’t say that…” And you don’t have to worry about the future: “What if this happens… What if we don’t have enough…” My friend, regretting the past and worrying about the future won’t change anything. Look to your heavenly Father, instead. Because He is for you at this present moment, you can be confident that He will help you and provide for you.

Beloved, God sent His Son to die for you. And Jesus gave you a blood-bought right to an abundant life full of meaning and purpose! He gave you a blood-bought right to walk in divine health all the days of your life! He gave you a blood-bought right to prosperity even when the economy goes down!

You have all these things not because you deserve them, but because Jesus shed His blood and gave you the right to have them. All these blessings are yours today because God is for you! And if God is for you, who can be against you!

See The Favor Of God Multiplied In Your Life

2009-01-28T21:49:00.001+08:00

2 Peter 1:2
2Grace and peace be multiplied to you in the knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord,

If you would like to walk in a greater measure of God’s favor, 2 Peter 1:2 says that grace, which is the undeserved favor of God, and peace, can be multiplied to you. Peace is the word “shalom” in Hebrew. Its definition includes wholeness, health and prosperity. So when you walk in divine favor and peace, you will walk in blessings in every area of your life!

But how do the undeserved favor and shalom of God increase in your life?

It is not by your laboring or toiling to earn it. The Bible says that it comes as your knowledge of Jesus and His finished work increases. It comes as you learn more about and believe that through Jesus’ one sacrifice at the cross, God removed all your sins, gave you His righteousness as a gift and put you in Christ to enjoy everything Jesus has. God’s favor is multiplied in your life when you simply believe that the favor of God that is on Christ is also on you because of what Jesus’ work at the cross has accomplished.

Today, you don’t have to struggle for favor. Just release it by speaking forth God’s Word in faith. On your way to work, say, “God’s favor surrounds me as with a shield.” (Psalm 5:12) As you continue to speak God’s favor over your life out of a revelation of Jesus’ finished work, you will see more of it being released.

When I first entered the workforce, I began to declare the favor of God in my job. Every time I was given a new assignment, I proclaimed that the divine favor of God was on me. The company began to prosper and I was blessed financially. By the time I left the company to serve God full-time, my income had increased so that I was in the top 15 per cent of earners in my age group in Singapore.

Today, in your workplace or at home, begin to declare the favor of God by faith. Expect to receive preferential treatment wherever you are. Say, “I am surrounded with the favor of God because of Jesus’ finished work. I have favor before God and man!” And see God’s favor work for you!

Daily Devotional Link from New Creation Church (Singapore)

By Jesus’ Stripes You Are Healed

2009-01-27T21:30:00.000+08:00

Isaiah 53:5
5… The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, and by His stripes we are healed.

You know, one of the biggest outcries against Mel Gibson’s movie, The Passion Of The Christ, was that it was too violent, especially the part where Jesus was scourged.

Let me tell you this: It was not violent enough! The Bible says that at the cross, Jesus’ visage was marred beyond that of any man. (Isaiah 52:14) In the movie, even after all the beatings, the actor James Caviezel, who played Jesus, still looked quite handsome.

But the reality is that when Jesus hung on the cross, He had “no form or comeliness… there is no beauty that we should desire Him”. (Isaiah 53:2) He was beaten to a pulp until His face looked like jelly hanging out!

In the movie, when they scourged Him, only a small portion of His bones was exposed, so it was still quite tidy. But the messianic psalms say, “The plowers plowed on my back; they made their furrows long” (Psalm 129:3), and “I can count all My bones. They look and stare at Me”. (Psalm 22:17) All His bones were exposed!

My friend, He was thinking of you when the soldiers tied Him to the scourging post. As they raised their whips, He said, “Let it all come on Me!”

But what came on Him was not just the whip stripping the flesh off His bare back, but your sicknesses and diseases. Each time He was whipped, every form of sickness and disease, including arthritis, cancer, diabetes, bird flu and dengue fever, came upon Him. “The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, and by His stripes we are healed.”

Today, healing is your right because Jesus has paid the price for your healing. So if the devil says, “You cannot be healed,” just declare, “Jesus has paid for my healing. Disease has no right to be in my body. I am healed in Jesus’ name!”

Every curse of sickness that was supposed to fall on you fell on Jesus instead. He bore every one of those stripes, so that you can walk in divine health all the days of your life. The price has been paid so that you can rise up and get out of your bed of affliction!

Daily Devotional Link from New Creation Church (Singapore)

Facts Change But God’s Word Remains

2009-01-26T23:20:00.001+08:00

John 8:32
32And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.”

Consider the cold, hard facts that these three people faced: The aunt of a lady in our church saw her X-ray which showed that one of her two kidneys was cancerous. A couple in our church read their medical reports which said that they would never be able to produce a child. A lady in our church who acted as a guarantor ended up being asked by the finance company to pay it S$34 million.

When such situations hit us and we allow the facts to settle in our hearts, we end up feeling greatly troubled. But when we let the truths of God’s Word settle them all, we will sense the Holy Spirit bearing witness to the truths that we are believing. He is the Spirit of truth. (John 16:13) He is not the Spirit of facts and does not bear witness to facts.

It may be a fact that you are sick. The doctors say that you are sick. The X-ray film shows that you are sick. But God’s Word says that by Jesus’ stripes you are healed! (Isaiah 53:5) That is the truth about your situation. What is the difference between fact and truth? Facts change, but truth — God’s Word — remains!

When God’s people choose to defy the facts and walk instead in His truths regarding their situations, the Holy Spirit in them will bear witness to the truths that they are believing.

The lady with the cancerous kidney underwent an operation to remove the organ. But praise God, she received supernatural restoration as later X-rays showed two healthy kidneys instead of one! God had formed a new kidney for her!

The childless couple received their miracle bundle of joy after seven years. Today, they are proud parents of not one, but four children!

The church member with the S$34 million debt told the finance company that it was not being fair to her and that God would protect her. The company’s management miraculously decided to cancel her debt!

The next time you are hit by disturbing facts, let God’s Word settle the truth about your situation. And as the Holy Spirit bears witness to the truths that you are believing, the facts will change and you will receive your miracle!

Daily Devotional Link from New Creation Church (Singapore)

Jesus Took Your Place So That You Can Take His

2009-01-25T23:08:00.002+08:00

Matthew 27:46
46And about the ninth hour Jesus cried out with a loud voice, saying, “Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani?” that is, “My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me?”

Do you know that it was at the cross that Jesus addressed His Father as “God” for the first time? He had always addressed His Father as “Father”. But at Calvary’s tree, He addressed His Father as “God”.

Jesus lost that Father-Son relationship when He was representing you and carrying your sins at the cross so that today, you can call God “Abba! Father!” (Romans 8:15) and have a loving father-son relationship with God forever. Jesus was forsaken by God and His world became very dark on that lonely hill so that in your darkest hour, God will always say to you, “I will never leave you nor forsake you!” (Hebrews 13:5)

At the time when Jesus needed God most, God turned His back on Him. God had to turn His back on His Son because His eyes are too holy to behold all the sin that was in His Son’s body. And because God turned His back on Jesus, He will never turn His back on you. Instead, you will see God’s face of favor shining on you all the time!

Jesus also took your place of no protection at the cross. For the first time, He gave up divine protection so that you can have it every day of your life! And because He became sin, He took your curse at the cross so that today, as you take His gift of righteousness, you receive only blessings from God.

Jesus received the full brunt of God’s wrath in His body once and for all when He carried your sins. All of God’s anger and condemnation fell on Him, consuming all your sins until God’s wrath was exhausted.

Today, God is not angry with you. The body of Jesus absorbed everything — your sins, curses, and God’s anger and condemnation. So live life expecting to see not the judgment, but the goodness and blessings of God!

Daily Devotional Link from New Creation Church (Singapore)

personality quiz

2009-01-24T14:35:00.001+08:00

I took the 43 Things Personality Quiz and found out I'm a

Self-Knowing Self-Improving Believer

Don’t Look To Your Faith, Look To Jesus

2009-01-24T10:59:00.002+08:00

Hebrews 12:2
2looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith...

If you are sick, you must know that you are already healed because of the finished work of Christ. Don’t ask, “Do I have enough faith to be healed? Do I have the right kind of faith to be healed? What if I am lacking in faith?” You are focusing on yourself and your faith, instead of Christ and His finished work.

You should be asking, “Did Jesus take away this sickness? If He did, then He must have done a perfect work.” In other words, fix your eyes on Jesus and His perfect work.

AB Simpson, who lived in the 19th century, wrote an article entitled Himself. In it, he mentioned his exhausted nervous system, and broken-down heart which could have proved fatal any time. So he sought the Lord for healing. God showed him Matthew 8:17, which says that Jesus “Himself took our infirmities and bore our sicknesses”.

AB Simpson said that though he believed that Jesus had borne away his sicknesses, he saw many hindrances which stood between him and his healing. And they all boiled down to one thing — his preoccupation with his faith! He had believed that if only he had the “right” kind of faith, he would receive his healing instantly.

He eventually came to the realization that he had to remove that last hindrance — his focus on his faith — and just rest in the finished work of Christ. That revelation marked his complete recovery from his sicknesses.

When you ask yourself, “Do I have enough faith?” you have already put faith as a hindrance between you and Jesus’ finished work. The more you focus on your faith, the more faith slips away. But if you focus on the finished work of Christ and see God’s grace toward you, God sees that as faith! Without realizing it, faith is there in your heart to believe that you will not die of what Christ Himself has already borne away completely for you, and you will see your miracle manifest!

Daily Devotional Link from New Creation Church (Singapore)

Grease

2008-11-01T21:52:00.002+08:00

Grease Lightning

Sandy

Goodbye to Sandra Dee

You're the one that I want

Hopelessly devoted to you

Summer Nights

There are worse things I could do

We go together

Beauty School Dropout

My Heart Will Go On

2008-10-25T19:17:00.002+08:00

Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you,
That is how I know you go on

Far across the distance
And spaces between us
You have come to show you go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And youre here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never let go till were gone

Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life well always go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And youre here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Youre here, theres nothing I fear,
And I know that my heart will go on
Well stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

I have a dream

2008-10-25T18:59:00.003+08:00

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a fantasy
To help me through reality
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness still another mile
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream

woman = problems

2008-09-20T18:15:00.000+08:00

NDP 08 Trailer One

2008-05-23T19:05:00.000+08:00

2008-05-15T08:32:00.002+08:00

Forever Love

2008-03-09T19:25:00.001+08:00

mou hitori de arukenai
toki no kaze ga tsuyosugite
AH... kizu tsuku koto nante
nareta hazu dakedo ima wa

AH... kono mama dakishimete
nureta mama no kokoro wo
kawari tsuzukeru kono toki ni
kawaranai ai ga aru nara

WILL YOU HOLD MY HEART
namida... uketomete
mou... kowaresou na ALL MY HEART

FOREVER LOVE, FOREVER DREAM
afureru omoi dake ga
hageshiku setsunaku jikan wo umetsukusu
OH! TELL ME WHY
ALL I SEE IS BLUE IN MY HEART

WILL YOU STAY WITH ME
kaze ga sugisaru made
mata... afuredasu ALL MY TEARS

* FOREVER LOVE, FOREVER DREAM
kono mama soba ni ite
yoake ni, furueru, kokoro wo dakishimete

OH! STAY WITH ME

AH... subete ga owareba ii
owari no nai kono yoru ni
AH... ushinau mono nante
nanimo nai anata dake

* repeat

AH... WILL YOU STAY WITH ME
kaze ga sugisaru made
mou dare yori mo soba ni

FOREVER LOVE, FOREVER DREAM
kore ijou arukenai
OH! TELL ME WHY, OH! TELL ME TRUE
oshiete ikiru imi wo

FOREVER LOVE, FOREVER DREAM
afureru namida no naka
kagayaku kisetsu ga eien ni kawaru made

FOREVER LOVE...

X-Japan Forever Love

2008-03-09T19:10:00.000+08:00

X JAPAN - Forever Love - THE LAST LIVE [Perfect TV ver.]

2008-03-09T19:05:00.000+08:00

general

2008-02-25T21:50:00.002+08:00

It has been quite some time I have not blog.

Well, liFe have not been good...

not going to talk more on this blog...

周杰倫 - 不能說的秘密

2008-02-05T17:11:00.000+08:00

退後 - 周杰倫

2008-02-05T17:09:00.000+08:00

Business as Usual

2007-12-25T16:11:00.000+08:00

And she gave birth to her firstborn, a son. She wrapped Him in cloths and placed Him in a manger, because there was no room for them in the inn. - Luke 2:7

Imagine if the God of the universe decided to visit planet earth as a new baby and you were given the opportunity to host His first night-in your hotel! Think of the future promotional possibilities..."God stayed here His first night!" You could sell tickets to see the room where He was born. What an opportunity to make history as a small-business owner!

God had need of a business owner's establishment one night 2,000 years ago. But there was no room for God in this business that night. There was no room for the unexpected miracle; no awareness of what was taking place in the heavenlies, no sign that God might be reaching out to this workplace believer to be used like no other in all of history.

Every day God has need of some man or woman's job. He wants to demonstrate miracles in their work. But there is no room in their work for Jesus. He is not asked to participate.

That night God slept in a stable. That night a business opportunity from Heaven was missed. It was business as usual.

May we all have spiritual eyes and ears to know when our Master needs what He has entrusted to us for His purposes.

TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman
12-25-2007

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Today's Prayer

God, I know that you gave Your best for me. Please forgive me for falling short; for the sin in my life; for taking You for granted. I want to give back my best to You. Thank you for the special gifts You have given...the gift of Your only begotten Son, of eternal life, of fellowship with You, of hope for a future, of Your presence, of all You do and all You give, of Your unconditional love. I praise You and lift You high today, as I celebrate the birth of Jesus. I love You. Merry Christmas.

emo post

2007-11-19T22:05:00.000+08:00

I am too lazy to blog in my personal blog, since I log in to here, I will blog here.
As I believe not much people read my blog.

Well, yesterday went to Pasir Ris beach on a rainy day.
Walk in the rain.
Thought of alot of things in my mind.

Been thru alot.
At times I am just sick of it.

In front of others, i look strong.
I am able to control all my emotions.

But when I just walk away from people,
I will just be myself again.

no wonder people call me an emo kid.

whatever manz...

life is not easy, I am tired.

Gloomy Sunday

2007-11-04T14:38:00.000+08:00

MY LAST MYSELF POST HERE...

2007-10-24T20:46:00.000+08:00

Somehow I no longer understand myself...

It is not the amount of stress that I am handling now...

As I think it is nothing...

But somehow or rather...
I still can't get over my little past.

I want to get out of it but dunno how...

It had been years...

I really thought I am okay... recovered...
I even keep telling myself I am okay,
deceiving myself...

At times I cant take it...
I dunno...

Maybe I need help this time...

My mind is confused...
Emotion is once again into my life...

This will be the last post that I will post here about my emotion.
I will have a space that I will not disclosed...

Sorry people, I need my private space now on.

Thank you for your understanding.

REGARDS

JACKY WINSON SIM

depression

2007-10-24T20:42:00.000+08:00

What is depression?

When doctors talk about depression, they mean the medical illness called major depression. Someone with major depression has symptoms like those listed in the box below nearly every day, all day, for 2 weeks or longer.

If you're depressed, you may also have headaches, other aches and pains, digestive problems and problems with sex. An older person with depression may feel confused or have trouble understanding simple requests.

Symptoms of depression

No interest or pleasure in things you used to enjoy
Feeling sad or empty
Crying easily or crying for no reason
Feeling slowed down or feeling restless and unable to sit still
Feeling worthless or guilty
Weight gain or loss
Thoughts about death or suicide
Trouble thinking, recalling things or focusing on what you're doing
Trouble making everyday decisions
Problems sleeping, especially in the early morning, or wanting to sleep all of the time
Feeling tired all of the time
Feeling numb emotionally, perhaps even to the point of not being able to cry

What causes depression?

Depression seems to be related to a chemical imbalance in the brain that makes it hard for the cells to communicate with one another. Depression also seems to be genetic (to run in families).

Depression can be linked to events in your life, such as the death of someone you love, a divorce or job loss. Taking certain medicines, abusing drugs or alcohol, or having other illnesses can also lead to depression. Depression isn't caused by personal weakness, laziness or lack of willpower.

How is depression diagnosed?

If you're having symptoms of depression, be sure to tell your doctor so you can get help. Don't expect your doctor to be able to guess that you're depressed just by looking at you. The sooner you seek treatment, the sooner the depression will lift.

Once you tell your doctor how you're feeling, he or she may ask you some questions about your symptoms, about your health and about your family history of health problems. Your doctor may also give you a physical exam and do some tests.

How is depression treated?

Depression can be treated with medicines, or a special type of counseling called psychotherapy, or with both.

What about medicines?

Many medicines can be used to treat depression. These medicines are called antidepressants. They correct the chemical imbalance in the brain that causes depression.

Antidepressants work differently for different people. They also have different side effects. So, even if one medicine bothers you or doesn't work for you, another may help. You may notice improvement as soon as 1 week after you start taking the medicine. But you probably won't see the full effects for about 6 to 8 weeks. You may have side effects at first but they tend to lessen after a couple of weeks.

How long will I need medicine?

How long you'll need to take the medicine depends on your depression. Your doctor may want you to take medicine for 4 to 6 months or longer. You need to take the medicine long enough to reduce the chance that the depression will come back. Talk with your doctor about any questions you have about your medicine

What is psychotherapy?

In psychotherapy, you talk with your family doctor, a psychiatrist or a therapist about things that are going on in your life. The focus may be on your thoughts and beliefs or on your relationships. Or the focus may be on your behavior, how it's affecting you and what you can do differently. Psychotherapy often lasts for a limited time, such as 8 to 20 visits.

Will I need to go to the hospital?

Depression can usually be treated through visits to your doctor. Treatment in the hospital may be needed if you have other medical conditions that could affect your treatment or if you're at high risk of suicide.

How long will the depression last?

This depends on how soon you get help. Left untreated, depression can last for weeks, months or even years. The main risk in not getting treatment is suicide. Treatment can help depression lift in 6 to 8 weeks, or less.

Getting through depression

Pace yourself. Don't expect to do everything you normally can. Set a realistic schedule.
Don't believe all of your negative thinking, such as blaming yourself or expecting to fail. This thinking is part of depression. These thoughts will go away as your depression lifts.
Get involved in activities that make you feel good or feel like you've achieved something.
Avoid making big life decisions when you're depressed. If you must make a big decision, ask someone you trust to help you.
Avoid drugs and alcohol. Both make depression worse. Both can cause dangerous side effects with your antidepressants.
Physical activity seems to cause a chemical reaction in the body that may improve your mood. Exercising 4 to 6 times a week for at least 30 minutes each time is a good goal. But even less activity can be helpful.
Try not to get discouraged. It will take time for your depression to lift fully.

Suicide

People with depression sometimes think about suicide. This thinking is part of the depression. If you have thoughts about hurting yourself, tell your doctor, friends or family, or call your local suicide hot line, such as the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.

Get help right away. The good news is that there are people who can help you, and depression can be treated.

Reasons to get help for depression

Early treatment helps keep depression from getting worse or lasting a long time.
Thoughts of suicide are common in people with depression. The risk of suicide is higher if you don't get treatment for your depression. When depression is successfully treated, the thoughts of suicide will go away.
Treatment can help you return to your "normal" self, enjoying life.
Treatment can help prevent depression from coming back.

Damn it...

I think I am having DEPRESSION.

I hope not...

nvmd...

chinese quizzzzzz...

2007-10-14T11:23:00.000+08:00

1.以下这三种动物，哪一样是你最喜爱的？
(a)猫　　　　(b)鸟　　　　(c)狗
(答案在下面...不要偷看唷...)

Ans: (c)狗

2. 你最喜爱什麼颜色？
(a)粉红色　　(b)白色　　　(c)黑色
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

Ans: )黑色

3.列举一个与你相同性别的人之名字
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

Ans: -someone-

4. 列举一个与你相反性别的人之名字
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

Ans: -someone-

5. 你较喜欢山脉，还是海滩？
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

Ans: 海滩

6. 你喜欢看日出，还是日落？
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

Ans: 日落

7. 由一至十中，你最喜欢哪个数目字？
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

Ans: 6

8. 你最喜欢什麼植物？
(a)红玫瑰　　(b)蕨类植物　(c)已经枯萎的植物
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

Ans: (b)蕨类植物

9 你最喜欢哪个季节？
(a)春季　　　(b)冬季　　　(c)夏季
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

Ans: (b)冬季

10. 默许两个愿望
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

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解答:

1.(解答)
(a)猫：你最爱你自己
(b)鸟：你喜欢听你自己的谈话
(c)狗：你把别人看得比自己还重

2.(解答)
(a)粉红色：你是豪放派的人
(b)白色：你是正统派的人
(c)黑色：你是生活在边缘的人

3.(解答)
他／她是你的幸运之星

4.(解答)
你将与他／她成为非常非常亲密的朋友

5.(解答)
(a)山脉：会早婚
(b)海滩：会晚婚

6.(解答)
(a)日出：你是一个似早晨的人且你得到更多
的任务完成
(b)日落：你是一个浪漫的人且你那缓慢地迷
恋的时候到了

7.(解答)
你所选出来的号码代表你在找到真命天子之前
谈过的变爱
次数

8.(解答)
(a)红玫瑰：你的生活是完美的，可是有时候
会多剌而令
人苦恼
(b)蕨类植物：你的生活将是可预言的，且会
稳健平安
(c)已经枯萎的植物：你是一个有病的人，生
活如一滩死水

9.(解答)
(a)春季：你是一个无法自拔的浪漫主义者
(b)冬季：你是一个坚持善良的人
(c)夏季：你是一个对任何事物皆坦率的人

10.(解答)
如果你将此页发给
(a)一个人：你的第一个愿望将会实现
(b)五个人：你的两个愿望皆会实现
(c)十个人或是更多的人：两个愿望将会在两
天内实现。

Ignore me...

2007-10-10T19:41:00.000+08:00

For some reason which I dunno.
I have been feeling not right lately.

A lot of emotions had been gushing within me.
I saw flashback that I always wanted to put down.
For some reason I can't.

I dunno, how much longer can I take it.

At times, I feel like ending it...
But for some reason, I hold back...

I need to breathe...
I wanted to hide myself...

Fucked

2007-10-02T20:24:00.000+08:00

Health haven't been okay.
And more arrows are being shot.

I am tired.
Tired of this arrowing shooting game.

At times like this, my body really cannot take it.
Today I am on MC.
Went to the polyclinic to see the doctor.

Then he was like saying, ur heatbeat is fast.
I was like saying okay.

At first he wanted to refer me to hospital but I ask dun need.
As tmr I will have my medical appointment at National Heart Centre.

I dislike the way that I am now.
I dislike the things that I do.

Even if I am doing video or 3d now, I think I will also dislike it.
As it is because I am just doing it for the sake of doing.
I dun wan to be a slave that follows idea.

Fucked it.
I am a guy who cares not the rank but quality.

My body is very sick and tired.

I dun noe whether how long this war will end.
I do not know.

I wish that it will end early with an ending that I wanted.

But in this organization, I believe otherwise.
But no matter what.

Unless now is the end of my life,
I will still continue to fight my way thru this war.

Fucked, why am I so emo.
damn it.

2007-09-30T21:01:00.000+08:00

Jacky for dunno what reason, I have been rather emo.

Fuck la.

There's a lot of emotion running thru my mind.
I dun noe why.

And my body is tired and sick.

My mind is tired and gloomy.

I wish that I am okay.

I dun wan to get depression...

ROARRRRRR...

jacky is still normal.

rant

2007-09-22T17:17:00.001+08:00

hmmm

Dunno why... Lately I have been feeling DARK.
Wa Lao dun tell me the emo me is coming back...

Well, had been busy busy busy in camp.
To all my friends out there (this inclusive my platoon or mayb coy mates)
Good luck on ur next journey of national service.

I might want to get myself excuse from night duties as scary.
As I dun like small and dark spaces.
It is a horror.
ya i got Claustrophobia.

Health is just okay lately.

But I have been thinking alot lately.
especially my past.

haiz
ok
I better not rant so much.

2007-09-22T17:16:00.001+08:00

Bastet

You look for balance and harmony, anxious, devoted. Often rash and impatient.

Colors: male: yellow ochre, female: grey
Compatible Signs: Sekhmet, Horus
Dates: Jul 14 - Jul 28, Sep 23 - Sep 27, Oct 3 - Oct 17

Role: Goddess of cats, women, and secrets
Appearance: Cat or cat-headed woman
Sacred animals: cat

What is Your Egyptian Zodiac Sign?
Designed by CyberWarlock of Warlock's Quizzles and Quandaries

The Caitiff

2007-09-22T17:13:00.000+08:00

You aren't sure where you came from. Perhaps your sire did an embrace and run. Or maybe your sire was an outcast himself. Either way, your powers are unique and really don't belong to any clan...or maybe a little from each. Because you of these circumstances, you aren't really sure where you belong. You tend to wander and do a bit of soul searching in your eternal life. Maybe some day...you have a while after all.

What Vampire Clan Do You Belong To?

The Caitiff

The clansless. Caitiffs, are a new aspect to the vampire's society. They don't have anyone to teach them Disciplines, and no one to tell them of the Traditions. This doesn't mean they don't know any Disciplines, they could very well make their own, but usually they figure out a few small tricks to a few Disciplines. Some may even group together every once in a while, but not likely. They prefer their freedom, and the will to do what they will.

Caitiff are vampires with no clan to call their own. This usually happens because their sire despised them and left them to die. And the occasional victim of feeding gets lucky, and some how gets some of the vampires blood. They are also the rebellious ones, and some take leave of their sire and do as they will, most of the time moving to a new city or some where remote.

Most of the other clans look upon the Caitiff as trash, weak blooded, no knowledge of who and what they are and leave them to them selves as long as they don't cause any trouble, and most defiantly don't break the Masquerade.

2007-09-22T16:58:00.000+08:00

Your Japanese Name Is...

Shuichi Inoue

What's your Japanese Name?

Jacky Winson Sim Soon Heng

Your Japanese Name Is...

Yo Inoue

What's your Japanese Name?

Sim Soon Heng Jacky Winson

So which one is my japanese name?
hmmmmmm

Gently Leading

2007-09-22T16:42:00.000+08:00

Gently Leading
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

So let my lord go on ahead of his servant, while I move along slowly at the pace of the droves before me and that of the children, until I come to my lord in Seir. - Genesis 33:14

Business often determines that we move at a pace that can put incredible stresses upon people and relationships. Jacob was a man who learned to manipulate and control outcomes. He even stole the birthright of his brother, Esau, through trickery. The Bible speaks of Jacob as a man who strived with God. He knew how to force situations to his advantage. It took years for God to break down all the rough edges of Jacob so that he could be worthy of becoming the patriarch of the 12 tribes of Israel. God saw something in Jacob that He could use.

Most men go through a "warrior stage" of life. In this stage of manhood, the man is known by what he does, what he accomplishes, and he is totally defined by his performance. It can be a tumultuous time for the man and those close to him. It is often signified by broken relationships because the goal is often more important than the way the goal is accomplished. When I meet with a man, I can easily determine what stage of life he is in by hearing him talk.

Jacob had successfully passed through his warrior stage based on the verse above. It takes someone mature to be able to "move along slowly at the pace of the droves before me and that of the children." Leaders who never come to understand this may be successful materially but fail at the most important aspect of leadership-leading at a pace that his followers can maintain. The roads are full of wives, children, and workers who cannot keep up with the pace of leaders and are left behind with broken dreams, broken hearts, and unfulfilled promises.

Are you a person who is more concerned with outcome than how you achieve the outcome? Can the people around you describe you as someone who leads at a pace that ensures respect and admiration? Ask the Lord for the ability to be a godly leader who understands the condition of his flock and the pace in which you can lead without alienating.

2007-09-09T20:52:00.000+08:00

2007-08-29T23:02:00.000+08:00

881

2007-08-29T21:54:00.000+08:00

quiz

2007-08-23T22:08:00.000+08:00

You are 60% likeable
You are a likeable person. You are fiercely loyal to your friends and you have a lot of them. You have may have a few enemies but it is only because they don't really know the real you.

'How Likeable are You?' at QuizGalaxy.com

The Picto-Personality Test

You are a person who is incredibly tranquil and values peace above all else.

When alone, you appreciate being able to do nothing if you want to, and setting your own pace for things.

You are intelligent. You use your time to its fullest potential and will go very far in life.

In the future you will be happy and live richly.

Take this Test at QuizGalaxy.com

Your Dating Style:
Honest Relationship (Self-Directed)

You like to have an honest relationship with someone. You may or may not be faithful, but you would always tell them what's going on with you.

'What is your dating style?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Check This OUT...

2007-08-20T12:27:00.000+08:00

http://web2.airmail.net/dpelc/yellow/

100807

2007-08-10T22:42:00.000+08:00

Today is my First day to report to HQ GUARDS.
It is like a good 45 mins bus trip (969, 171).
Very sianz...

The people there that I have met today are really friendly.
As all the bosses are on leave so I don't get to see a lot.

Well I really wonder, I also stay in the office over here, like Tekong.
But why time flies faster over here...

hmmmm...
I dunno...

I am happy about this posting as it is a stay out one and is a 8am to 5.30pm one.
5-days week.
=)

Thank GOD for this posting as I actually tell myself on that wed morning that if I dun get post out by this week, the national day book in I will bring in 2 packs of cigarettes. hahaha... But seems that GOD wanted me to quit badly... I mean I have quit it like long ago... HE wanted me to not touch cigarettes. haha...

But my BIGGEST worry about this camp is SNAKES.

People who know me will know that I have phobia with water and snake.

hahhahahaa....

okok... that's all....

national day

2007-08-09T14:50:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 42nd BIRTHDAY TO SINGAPORE.

"Majulah Singapura" (Onward Singapore)

Words by: Zubir Said
Music by: Zubir Said
Adopted: 1965

MALAY LYRICS

Mari kita rakyat Singapura
Sama-sama menuju bahagia
Cita-cita kita yang mulia
Berjaya Singapura

Marilah kita bersatu
Dengan semangat yang baru
Semua kita berseru
Majulah Singapura
Majulah Singapura

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ENGLISH TRANSLATION

Come, fellow Singaporeans
Let us progress towards happiness together
May our noble aspiration bring
Singapore success

Come, let us unite
In a new spirit
Let our voices soar as one
Onward Singapore
Onward Singapore

The National Anthem was written in the wake of nationalism during 1956-57. Its composer and author, Zubir Said, had written it on the basis of two words, "Majulah Singapura" or "Onward Singapore" (the national motto). The patriotic song was first performed on December 3, 1959, at the installation of the new head of state and the introduction of the state (later national) flag. The anthem was used as a state song within Malaysia, of which it was a part, and was adopted as a national anthem in 1965 upon independence.

In 2000, the anthem underwent a slight change in that the official arrangement was made more solemn and inspiring. The new version, arranged by Phoon Yew Tien, had its debut at the Victoria Concert Hal in November of that year and was officially unveiled in January, 2001.

Although Singapore has four official languages (Malay, English, Mandarin Chinese, and Tamil), the anthem is only to be sung in the original Malay lyrics, not any translation. (As such, the English translation is presented here, as on other anthem pages, as a guide for reader comprehension only.)

The Causes of Failure

2007-08-09T14:36:00.000+08:00

TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

You cannot stand against your enemies until you remove it. - Joshua 7:13b

The first battle for the people of Israel traveling from Egypt was at Jericho, once they crossed the Jordan River. God had given them a great victory at Jericho, and Joshua was now ready to move to their next battle at Ai. After they spied out the enemy camp, they determined they needed only a few thousand men to gain victory. They went up against Ai only to fail miserably. They lost 32 men in a battle that should have been an easy victory, but instead they were forced to retreat. Joshua was devastated. "Ah, Sovereign Lord, why did You ever bring this people across the Jordan to deliver us into the hands of the Amorites to destroy us?" (Josh. 7:7a)

In this case, the people fell short because they failed to uphold the standard God had set for them. God had told them not to take any plunder from their first battle. However, Achan hid some forbidden treasures, and God was now judging the entire nation for one man's sin.

Whenever we act without God's complete blessing on our activity, we can expect God to thwart our plans. God's word to Joshua was that he could not stand against his enemies as long as there was disobedience among his troops.

Whenever we launch a business endeavor, we should make sure there are no unclean things in our dealings that would allow us to be vulnerable to a failed effort: unpaid vendors, disgruntled employees who were not treated fairly, lawsuits, dishonesty. Many of these things can hinder God from blessing our enterprises. These things can remove the shield of protection from our workplace, which God wants to bless, but cannot because He is committed to upholding righteousness. His name is blemished when unrighteousness is allowed to permeate our lives.

Is the Lord able to bless your enterprises today? If not, you may need to go back and clean up a few things before He can do so. Take whatever steps are needed to ensure the blessing of God today.

2007-08-05T09:06:00.000+08:00

update

2007-06-15T11:07:00.000+08:00

Some updates before I go shave my head, and to a place where boys become man.
well, somehow, that sentence is a little wrong as why tekong or NS is a place where boys become man???

Is it just becoz u will develop some muscles, be darker, then u r considered man?

lolz

oh well, on the 12 of this month, I went for my 2nd check up.
as usual got to wait for 9 weeks later to do my blood test and another 1 more week for my 3rd check up.

sianz

then on the 14 of june, I was having a bad fever. Not that bad actually. Just 39.7 degree. lol...
then todaY still feeling sick although fever drop liao.

tmr morning to tekong...

Stanley and Justin, see u dere as today is the big day for u 2...
hahahahaa

but also see first bah... as if my cough, my flu, my fever still bad, then I shall consider MC.
if not I will be a good Boy(I mean man) hahaha...

Perception Is Not Reality

2007-06-15T11:06:00.000+08:00

Perception Is Not Reality
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

The lions may roar and growl, yet the teeth of the great lions are broken. - Job 4:10

In the advertising business we often say that "perception is reality" for the person who views our advertising message. It does not matter whether the audience believes the message to be true, only that they perceive it to be true. Their actions will be the same whether they believe it or only perceive it.

The enemy of our souls is very good at this game. He may bring on us what we perceive to be true when it is a lie. It may appear that there is no way around a situation. He may bring great fear on us. When we buy into his lie, we believe only what we have chosen to perceive to be true. It usually has no basis of truth. Such was the case when Peter looked on the waters during a night boat journey with the other disciples. At first glance, he and the disciples screamed with fear, thinking that what they saw was a ghost. It was actually Jesus.

Satan's name means "accuser." He travels to and fro to accuse the brethren. He brings an impressive front to all he does, yet behind that front is a weak, toothless lion with a destination that has already been prepared in the great abyss. He knows his destination, but he wants to bring as many with him as possible; so he often has a big roar, but little bite.

The next time some event comes into your life that creates fear and trembling, first determine the source. Look past the emotions and evaluate the situation in light of God's Word. Perception is not always reality.

When Planting Yields No Fruit

2007-06-12T23:14:00.000+08:00

When Planting Yields No Fruit
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

You have planted much, but have harvested little.... - Haggai 1:6

Have you ever worked and worked only to yield very little from your efforts? Such was the case for the workplace believers during the time of the prophet Haggai. Finally, God spoke through the prophet Haggai to inform the people why their efforts were not yielding any fruit. There was a specific reason this was happening.

"You expected much, but see, it turned out to be little. What you brought home, I blew away. Why?" declares the Lord Almighty. "Because of My house, which remains a ruin, while each of you is busy with his own house. Therefore, because of you the heavens have withheld their dew and the earth its crops. I called for a drought on the fields and the mountains, on the grain, the new wine, the oil and whatever the ground produces, on men and cattle, and on the labor of your hands" (Haggai 1:9-11).

God had finally had enough. His priorities were not His people's priorities. So, He withheld in order to get their attention. Zerubbabel was governor of Judah at the time. He was a godly man who sought to do God's will. He listened as the prophet gave these words; then he responded.

Then Zerubbabel son of Shealtiel, Joshua son of Jehozadak, the high priest, and the whole remnant of the people obeyed the voice of the Lord their God and the message of the prophet Haggai, because the Lord their God had sent him. And the people feared the Lord (Haggai 1:12).

Sometimes God has to stir up the spirit of one man to initiate needed change. Zerubbabel was that man. Scriptures say, "The Lord stirred up the spirit of Zerubbabel" (Hag. 1:14). God is stirring up the spirit of a remnant of workplace believers throughout the world today. They are seeing what breaks God's heart, and they're responding. Has God placed the spirit of Zerubbabel in you? Are you one who will make a difference for the Kingdom, or are you concerned about building bigger and better barns? The Lord is calling forth His people in these last days to make a difference. Ask Him what He wants to do through you.

Building a Solid Foundation

2007-05-19T11:32:00.000+08:00

Building a Solid Foundation
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

But everyone who hears these words of Mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand. - Matthew 7:26

There were two kinds of people in the days of Jesus. Some heard the words that Jesus spoke and were awed by His wisdom and understanding, but did nothing about what they heard. Others heard those words and acted on them. Jesus said that those who heard the words but failed to put them into practice were foolish and likened them to building a house on sand. How foolish, indeed, it would be to build a house on sand.

The person who followed what Jesus taught was a person who would be sure to weather life's storms.

Therefore everyone who hears these words of Mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock (Matthew 7:24-25).

You never know how well your house is built until it is tested by the elements. Torrential rains reveal the quality of your roof. Wind and cold reveal how well your home is insulated. Heat and sun reveal the quality of your paint and siding. All these elements reveal whether a solid foundation has been laid to make your home a secure and lasting place to live.

Many of us find that we have given only lip service to God's commands. We are faced with the reality that our foundations are not strong enough to weather life's storms. How do we react when the trials come? Do we fret and worry? Do we take life into our hands? Do we respond inappropriately when we don't get what we want? The Lord uses these times to help us recognize whether our foundations are sand or rock. Ask the Lord today if you have built on His rock. If so, you can be comforted to know that you can weather any storm that may come your way.

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2007-05-17T16:32:00.000+08:00

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RANTS

2007-05-16T18:51:00.000+08:00

hmmmm...

Now I work with Estee Lauder (The perfume company)
hahaha

Sianz...

This few days have been looking at lots and lots of university.
I wanted to take Psychology.

whhheeeyyyy

James Cook University (Singapore campus)
SMU
NTU
NUS
SIM
Hong Kong University (overseas)

Sianz...

Still considering which one to apply...

Nevermind, I have like one to two years to think about which university will benefit me the most...

hahaha

Sowing in Tears

2007-05-16T18:50:00.000+08:00

Sowing in Tears
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy. - Psalm 126:5

The most difficult place to keep moving in faith is the place of extreme pain. Extreme pain, especially emotional pain, can become immobilizing to the human spirit if it is allowed to overcome us. The psalmist tells us there is only one remedy for overcoming painful circumstances that will result in joy. We are to sow in the midst of these times. You cannot do this if you live by feelings alone. It is an act of the will. This act requires that we go outside ourselves in pure faith.

I learned this principle during one of the deepest periods of my life. I had lost much that was dear to me. A mature man in the faith admonished me to reach out to others in spite of my own pain. "Invest in someone else," he said. I did not realize what a place of healing and comfort that would become.

"He who goes out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with him" (Ps. 126:6). Pain can become a source of joy if we take the first step by planting seed. There is a harvest that will come if we sow in the midst of tears.

Overcoming Our Past

2007-05-16T18:49:00.000+08:00

Overcoming Our Past
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

Then the Spirit of the Lord came upon Jephthah. - Judges 11:29a

We've all heard stories of individuals who have overcome extreme hardship during their childhood years. Children of alcoholics, orphans who never have parents, loss of parents to a fatal crash, childhood disease - these are all difficult circumstances to overcome.

Jephthah was a man who overcame his obstacles and refused to allow his circumstances to prevent him from becoming great in God's sight. He was born to Gilead, a result of his father's adulterous encounter with a prostitute. Gilead's wife, who had bore more sons, decided to reject Jephthah, and drove him away from their home saying, "You are not going to get any inheritance in our family because you are the son of another woman." Imagine the rejection this young man felt as he was cast away from his own family.

This experience taught Jephthah to become a hardened warrior. Today he probably would have been part of a street gang. As he got older, his reputation as a warrior became known to those in his country, so much so that when the Ammonites made war on Israel, the elders of Gilead went to Jephthah and asked him to be their commander. Jephthah had to fight off those feelings of rejection from previous years.

"Didn't you hate me and drive me from my father's house?" he responded. He overcame his hurt and pain, and responded to the call God had on his life.

It is said that if we were to help the butterfly remove itself from the cocoon, the butterfly would not be strong enough to survive. It is the struggle that prepares the butterfly to become strong enough to fly. Without the struggle in the cocoon, it could not survive as a butterfly.

The Lord prepares each of us in similar ways. Some of our childhoods seem to have been harsh and born from a seemingly unloving God. However, the Lord knows our struggle and will make our life an instrument in His hand if we will follow Him with an upright heart. He does make all things beautiful in His time if we are willing to be patient.

UPDATE LIAO

2007-05-11T17:09:00.000+08:00

Here I am back updating.

Now I am once again jobless after my People Association and UOB job.
And had been sick
Bad rashes for more than a week liao.
But after applying the dunno wat lotion by the doctor, better liao.
then fever, whole body no strength.
Gastric, I suppose quite okay bah...
Need to go for my next appointment on the 12 of june.
4 days before my enlistment.

haha
Weak siaz...
hmmm...

this few days had been at home, as rashes bad, fever, and body cannot move...
So, sibei BORING siaz...

need to find something to do soonz...
Dunno...
hmmm...

ok ya, dunno wat to update...
So byebye

200 Pounds Beauty

2007-04-24T13:05:00.000+08:00

UPDATE

2007-04-19T18:23:00.000+08:00

hello people.

Well update abit so that this shows that I am still alive.
haha

Well...
Life has been SICK for me...

And becoz of sick, I miss out a lot of fun...
Sad...

Anyway Happy birthday to RAINER and SIYUAN.
Sorry I was unable to attend the two gatherings...

On the 16 I went to SGH to visit the gastro.
Given a bagful of medicine and waiting for my next appointment on the 12 of june.
See whether do I need x-rays and watever nonsense...

Currently for the past 1 week plus, my right eye area and forehead area has always been not okay... I could not really bend down or focus onto something. As there will be pain there...
Thinking of visiting the doctor but need $$$ so might wait for a little while first...
Wun die yet. haha

YEsterday receive my letter and I will be enlisting on the 16 June 2007, BMTC school ONE, 10.30am.

Sianz... But dunno yet as I got to check my medical reports to see first...
ahhaa
I miss all of you...
heeeeeee

okok...

Wanted: Dead or Alive!

2007-04-17T19:37:00.000+08:00

Wanted: Dead or Alive!
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms (Eph 6:12).

In the old west it was common to see a poster on the wall of the town jail or post office with a man's picture below the words: Wanted: Dead or Alive! These were the most notorious criminals who posed the greatest danger to society.

Let me ask you a personal question. Is there a "Wanted: Dead or Alive" poster in hell with your name on it? Are you a real danger to hell? Do you cause problems for Satan's legion of demons? Are you pushing back Satan's agenda on planet earth?

Are the unsaved in danger of receiving salvation through you? Will someone receive healing because you dared to pray for them? Will someone's life be impacted because you chose to pray for them in your workplace during a difficult time? Will a city be impacted for Jesus Christ because of you?

Millions of believers sit on the sidelines everyday having no impact on the Kingdom of darkness. Their names will never appear on a Wanted poster in hell because Satan sees that they are no threat. However, God wants you to be a threat to Satan's kingdom.

What are some things you can do that will pose a threat to Satan's agenda? Perhaps you can begin praying for one of Satan's most notorious talk show personalities. Or maybe you are called to visit an elderly home to bring the love of Christ into a lonely place. There are many ways you can earn a reputation in hell.

Are you willing to be a force to be reckoned with by Satan's legions?

fan wei qi - ta mei you cuo

2007-04-17T17:27:00.000+08:00

many singers

2007-04-17T17:24:00.001+08:00

最初的梦想-范玮琪

2007-04-17T17:14:00.000+08:00

没那么爱他)-Fan Wei Qi

2007-04-17T17:10:00.000+08:00

你最珍贵（李圣杰范玮琪）

2007-04-17T17:00:00.000+08:00

范玮琪 - 我们的纪念日

2007-04-17T16:59:00.000+08:00

范范的纪念日

2007-04-17T16:51:00.001+08:00

范玮琪 - 黑白配

2007-04-17T16:49:00.001+08:00

些花儿-朴树那

2007-04-17T16:36:00.000+08:00

那些花儿-范玮琪

2007-04-17T16:28:00.000+08:00

fan wei qi and angela zhang - what if

2007-04-17T16:22:00.001+08:00

The Graduate-Level Test: Self-Defense

2007-04-17T16:06:00.000+08:00

The Graduate-Level Test: Self-Defense
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun. - Psalm 37:6

As a believer grows in trusting obedience and love, God often brings a test that seems uncharacteristically cruel. The test: being wrongfully judged by those close to you. It is not for the reactionary. It cannot be passed over by simply gutting it out. Supernatural grace is the only means of passing this one. It is one of those tests the Savior had to experience Himself when being tried by the court of public opinion, the religious community, and the government of His day. His response to the government was silence. His response to the religious establishment was silence at the final judgment. To the rest of His accusers He remained quiet and left vindication to the Father. He lived the commandment He gave to the disciples:

"But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, because He is kind to the ungrateful and wicked" (Luke 6:35).

How do you react when you are accused or mistreated for no reason? Do you listen quietly, or do you justify each and every action? Most of us take pride in doing what is right and expect the same from others, especially our brothers and sisters in the faith. Jesus knew that if you were to be a true follower of His, you would enter this test eventually. It is part of the program. The workplace gives ample opportunity to be wronged, misunderstood, and maligned. When God brings a measured assault against one of His children, it is to find out if he truly believes in the cross. The cross is where each of us is given the opportunity to die to our pride, our reputations, and our ego. When He allows a measured assault upon us, it is to find out if the cross is sufficient. He wants to see if we will seek to rescue ourselves. Jesus said if we die with Him, we will be raised with Him. When God allows satan to bring the measured assault, ask God for the grace to cling to the cross. Let the pride and arrogance that Jesus wants to remove from our lives be crucified. Thank God for the opportunity to be crucified with Christ. Then your righteousness will shine like the noonday sun and the justice of your cause will be in His hands.

曹格 - 3721

2007-04-12T17:03:00.000+08:00

曹格聽海

2007-04-12T16:37:00.001+08:00

曹格 - Superman

2007-04-12T16:34:00.000+08:00

曹格 - 姑娘

2007-04-12T16:25:00.001+08:00

曹格 - 世界唯一的你

2007-04-12T16:18:00.001+08:00

羅志祥幸福獵人曹格原版 (DEMO)

2007-04-12T15:55:00.000+08:00

曹格-數到五答應我

2007-04-12T15:51:00.000+08:00

2007-04-10T14:14:00.000+08:00

one night in 北京

2007-04-08T18:16:00.001+08:00

Sianz

2007-04-04T20:48:00.000+08:00

sianz sianz sianz sianz

Now very sianz....

Da-ge and da sao eating happily together at burger king.
hahaha

very sianz...

dunno wat to update...

mayb when i reach home then update even more ba..

sick

2007-03-15T03:17:00.000+08:00

It has been quite awhile I haven blog.
Lately busy with Creative Thinking.

Ya, and somehow, health has also been worsen.
Today (I mean yesterday) I nearly knock out.
My gastric problem is back.
I knew it got worst becoz of today.
When at the busstop, I have been controlling my pain.
but i felt that my hands are trembling somehow, and I perspire.
I shd not perspire at that point of time, but wierdly I did.

Then my heart beat has been quite fast lately.
For no reason.

And headache is also another problem.

I know I shd go to the doctor.
But for me, I will say, nevermind.
As now I am in financial crisis, and no time.
No $ and No time, I dun care about my health.
unless I have enuff $.

Medical checkups are expensive.

Obeying the Spirit of God

2007-03-13T19:29:00.000+08:00

Obeying the Spirit of God
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

Now an angel of the Lord said to Philip, "Go south to the road - the desert road - that goes down from Jerusalem to Gaza." - Acts 8:26

Philip was conducting what we might today call a revival meeting. God was blessing the meeting, and many were being healed and delivered from demonic influence. Here is the scene:

Philip went down to a city in Samaria and proclaimed the Christ there. When the crowds heard Philip and saw the miraculous signs he did, they all paid close attention to what he said. With shrieks, evil spirits came out of many, and many paralytics and cripples were healed. So there was great joy in that city (Acts 8:5-8).

And yet, in the midst of this great event, the Holy Spirit spoke to Philip and told him to remove himself and go to a completely different area to speak to one individual. Philip was so sensitive to the directive of the Holy Spirit that he left what would be deemed a successful event to go speak to another - an Ethiopian eunuch. The result of his obedience was that Philip led the eunuch to faith in Christ and baptized him. The Lord then took Philip away supernaturally to another region many miles away.

God's ways of determining where we invest our time and energy often have little to do with results. The danger for each of us is to determine that we are in the center of God's will simply by the success or failure of the events we are involved in. Our plumb line for determining success can be only one thing: obedience. Philip responded in obedience to the direction of the Holy Spirit.

Are you listening to the voice of the Holy Spirit? Has God prompted you to speak, go, or come alongside another? Ask God today to help you hear the Holy Spirit's voice so that you might be used mightily in your workplace.

Understanding the Source of Anger

2007-03-12T23:41:00.000+08:00

Understanding the Source of Anger
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

A fool gives full vent to his anger, but a wise man keeps himself under control. - Proverbs 29:11

The workplace can be a pressure-packed world. The demands that are often put on us can bring out things that we never knew were there. Sometimes we begin to think that the source of that pressure is to blame for our response to the pressure. It could be an event, a spouse, a boss, a client, a child, or even a driver who cuts us off in traffic.

I recall responding to a close friend one time, "If you had not done that, I would never have responded that way." Later I learned that this response had little truth to it. We all choose to get angry. No one else is to blame for our anger.

"The circumstances of life, the events of life, and the people around me in life, do not make me the way I am, but reveal the way I am" [Dr. Sam Peeples].

This simple quote has had a profound impact on how I view my anger now. Anger only reveals what is inside of me. I can't blame anyone but me for my response to a situation. I have learned that anger is only the symptom of something else that is going on inside of me. This quote now resides on my refrigerator door as a daily reminder of the truth about my response to life's situations.

It has been said that anger is like the warning panel on the dash of your car. It is the light that tells us something is going on under the hood and we need to find out what is the source of the problem. I discovered that the source of anger is often unmet expectations or personal rights. We believe we are entitled to a particular outcome to a situation. When this doesn't happen, it triggers something in us. At the core of this is fear, often a fear of failure or rejection, fear of what others think, fear of the unknown.

If you struggle with anger, ask God to reveal the source of that anger. Ask Him to heal you of any fears that may be the root of your anger. Ask God to help you take responsibility for your response to difficult situations.

Suffering for the Salvation of Another

2007-03-11T18:32:00.001+08:00

Suffering for the Salvation of Another
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of Me. - Matthew 5:11

Recently, a friend told a true story about one of his closest friends who experienced great suffering for the soul of his persecutor. This man worked on a cargo ship. His boss was the captain. This friend was a committed Christian who shared his faith with others and was a good worker. One day the friend led the sea captain's girlfriend to Christ. The sea captain already hated and ridiculed the Christian worker because of his faith in Christ. When his girlfriend came to Christ, she stopped sleeping with the captain. The captain blamed the Christian man for the change in his girlfriend. One day he entered the restaurant where the Christian man was having lunch. He walked over to his table and began hurling obscenities and began beating him. The Christian man simply tried to defend himself but did not fight back. The captain kept beating him until eventually the man lay on the floor bleeding.

Two men entered the restaurant and saw what was taking place. They jumped the sea captain and took him outside and began beating him. The sea captain was beaten so badly that he needed immediate medical attention. The Christian worker saw the condition of the sea captain, came to his aid, and began helping him. The sea captain was so moved that this man could do this after he had literally beaten him bloody that he began to weep, not understanding what could move a man to have such love in the face of being beaten. The sea captain accepted Jesus at that moment.

The Bible tells us that while we were yet sinners Christ came and paid our penalty so that we might live eternally. Many in the workplace have never known the love of Christ. You might be the only one they ever meet who can introduce them to this love. Ask God to show you how to love the unlovable in your workplace today.

When God Restores What the Locusts Eat

2007-03-11T18:31:00.001+08:00

When God Restores What the Locusts Eat
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten - the great locust and the young locust, the other locusts and the locust swarm - My great army that I sent among you. - Joel 2:25

There are seasons in our lives that involve times of famine and times of restoration. Solomon tells us that He has made everything beautiful in its time and that there is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under Heaven. (See Ecclesiastes 3:1,11.)

God brings about both the good and the bad. The seasons of famine have a divine purpose in our lives. They accomplish things that only these hard places can accomplish. But there is a time when those hard places have accomplished their purpose and He begins to restore. God did this with the nation of Israel after a season of famine and devastation.

Be glad, O people of Zion, rejoice in the Lord your God, for He has given you the autumn rains in righteousness. He sends you abundant showers, both autumn and spring rains, as before. The threshing floors will be filled with grain; the vats will overflow with new wine and oil. "I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten - the great locust and the young locust, the other locusts and the locust swarm - My great army that I sent among you. You will have plenty to eat, until you are full, and you will praise the name of the Lord your God, who has worked wonders for you; never again will My people be shamed. Then you will know that I am in Israel, that I am the Lord your God, and that there is no other; never again will My people be shamed" (Joel 2:23-27).

God wants each of us to know that there is a time when He will restore in order to demonstrate His gracious hand in our lives. He is a loving Father who tenderly guides His children through the difficult places. If God has taken you through a time of leanness, know that He is the restorer of that which the locusts have eaten. Wait patiently for Him to bring this about in your life. He will do it.

Confidence in Numbers

2007-03-10T13:25:00.000+08:00

Confidence in Numbers
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

David was conscience-stricken after he had counted the fighting men, and he said to the Lord, "I have sinned greatly in what I have done. Now, O Lord, I beg You, take away the guilt of Your servant. I have done a very foolish thing." - 2 Samuel 24:10

It just seems to be human nature. As we grow in wealth and ability, our confidence moves from complete trust in the Lord to trust in our resources. King David decided one day that he needed to know how many fighting men he had in his army. This was a grievous sin in the nation of Israel. God always made it clear to the nation that He, not their army, was their source. It was against the law of God to number the troops. David's general, Joab, knew the serious nature of such an action.

But Joab replied to the king, "May the Lord your God multiply the troops a hundred times over, and may the eyes of my lord the king see it. But why does my lord the king want to do such a thing?" (2 Samuel 24:3)

Joab knew that David was treading in dangerous waters when he brought up the idea to him. But David had it in his mind that this is what he was going to do. And he did. The result: God judged David for this sin by smiting the nation with a plague that resulted in the loss of 70,000 lives.

Recently, I was having lunch with a former stockbroker who lost everything in the 1987 stock crash in the United States. He made an interesting comment. "You cannot know how to fully trust the Lord in the financial area until you really have to. When I lost everything, I was forced to trust Him when I knew I could not pay my next bill unless God provided. This was the time I learned to trust God. I never had to trust God before I lost my money because I had plenty. We don't willingly enter this level of trust with God."

Ask God today to keep you from trusting in your own resources. Ask Him how to balance trust and blessing from Him this day.

Faith Versus Presumption

2007-03-09T02:06:00.001+08:00

Faith Versus Presumption
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

So she said to Abram, "The Lord has kept me from having children. Go, sleep with my maidservant; perhaps I can build a family through her." Abram agreed to what Sarai said. - Genesis 16:2

Presumption is based on our own reasoning. Abraham and Sarah fell into presumption when they got too old to have children. God had promised a son to Abraham and Sarah - a son who would fulfill His promise to birth a nation. But Abraham and Sarah were past the normal age for childbearing. So, they concluded that God needed help to work out His plan.

Many workplace believers make the same mistake every day. We make assumptions about what we believe God is doing and wants us to do. However, before we really have full assurance that God has spoken to us on the matter and revealed His perfect action plan, we move forward with our steps to get it done. How do we protect ourselves from presumption? The Proverbs tell us that there is safety in a multitude of counselors (see Prov. 11:14 KJV). Submitting our decisions to others for confirmation protects each of us from the deceit of our own heart. This process will protect us from presumption and encourage us to move in faith. The next time you believe God is directing you toward a specific action, consult with your spouse first, then some close, spiritual friends who will take the time to prayerfully consider your request. If you don't have consensus, wait until you do before you move forward. God will move through this process to His desired will for the matter.

Living for a Cause Greater Than Yourself

2007-03-07T21:27:00.001+08:00

Living for a Cause Greater Than Yourself
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

I can do everything through Him who gives me strength. - Philippians 4:13

In the thirteenth century a man named William Wallace became the instrument of freedom from England's tyranny over Scotland. A very wicked king ruled England. A tragedy in the life of William Wallace launched him into living for this cause. Initially his cause was revenge, but soon his cause turned to something bigger than himself - freedom for a nation. When he challenged the commoners to fight for this freedom, they responded that the enemy was too great and that they might die on the battlefield. They also refused to fight for the nobles, the knights and leaders who had a vested interest in gaining more land for themselves versus a pure cause of freedom. Wallace's response: "Yes, we might die. We will all die sooner or later. But we will die for a cause worth dying for. So that our children and their children might live in freedom." This story was popularized in the movie Brave Heart (Sherman Oaks, California: Paramount Pictures, 1995).

Today we find many Christian workplace believers living a status quo relationship with God that is more characterized as "business as usual" than a life demonstrating God's power. Our focus is often more concerned with improving our standard of living than improving the Kingdom of God through our circle of influence. While this takes place, millions upon millions die without the saving grace of Christ. Many other Christians die never experiencing the freedom in Christ that His blood paid for. God has called each of us to live for a cause greater than ourselves - a life that is dependent on His grace and power to achieve things we never thought possible through our lives. This is His plan for your life. The apostle Paul prayed that He might experience the power of the resurrection in his life. This power is available to you and me to live for a cause greater than ourselves. Ask God what He wants to achieve through your life today. And consider yourself dead already to the consequences of what that might mean for you.

results

2007-03-06T23:44:00.000+08:00

Your Type is
INFJ

Introverted	Intuitive	Feeling	Judging
Strength of the preferences %
44	25	50	11

INFJ type description by D.Keirsey
INFJ type description by J. Butt and M.M. Heiss
http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes3.asp

Qualitative analysis of your type formula
You are:

moderately expressed introvert
moderately expressed intuitive personality
moderately expressed feeling personality
slightly expressed judging personality

[ENFP] [INFP] [ENFJ] [INFJ] [ESTJ] [ISTJ] [ESFJ] [ISFJ]
[ENTP] [INTP] [ENTJ] [INTJ] [ESTP] [ISTP] [ESFP] [ISFP]

Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Judging
by Joe Butt

Profile: INFJ
Revision: 3.01
Date of Revision: 6 Mar 2005

Beneath the quiet exterior, INFJs hold deep convictions about the weightier matters of life. Those who are activists -- INFJs gravitate toward such a role -- are there for the cause, not for personal glory or political power.

INFJs are champions of the oppressed and downtrodden. They often are found in the wake of an emergency, rescuing those who are in acute distress. INFJs may fantasize about getting revenge on those who victimize the defenseless. The concept of 'poetic justice' is appealing to the INFJ.

"There's something rotten in Denmark." Accurately suspicious about others' motives, INFJs are not easily led. These are the people that you can rarely fool any of the time. Though affable and sympathetic to most, INFJs are selective about their friends. Such a friendship is a symbiotic bond that transcends mere words.

INFJs have a knack for fluency in language and facility in communication. In addition, nonverbal sensitivity enables the INFJ to know and be known by others intimately.

Writing, counseling, public service and even politics are areas where INFJs frequently find their niche.

Functional Analysis:

Introverted iNtuition

Introverted intuitives, INFJs enjoy a greater clarity of perception of inner, unconscious processes than all but their INTJ cousins. Just as SP types commune with the object and "live in the here and now" of the physical world, INFJs readily grasp the hidden psychological stimuli behind the more observable dynamics of behavior and affect. Their amazing ability to deduce the inner workings of the mind, will and emotions of others gives INFJs their reputation as prophets and seers. Unlike the confining, routinizing nature of introverted sensing, introverted intuition frees this type to act insightfully and spontaneously as unique solutions arise on an event by event basis.

Extraverted Feeling

Extraverted feeling, the auxiliary deciding function, expresses a range of emotion and opinions of, for and about people. INFJs, like many other FJ types, find themselves caught between the desire to express their wealth of feelings and moral conclusions about the actions and attitudes of others, and the awareness of the consequences of unbridled candor. Some vent the attending emotions in private, to trusted allies. Such confidants are chosen with care, for INFJs are well aware of the treachery that can reside in the hearts of mortals. This particular combination of introverted intuition and extraverted feeling provides INFJs with the raw material from which perceptive counselors are shaped.

Introverted Thinking

The INFJ's thinking is introverted, turned toward the subject. Perhaps it is when the INFJ's thinking function is operative that he is most aloof. A comrade might surmise that such detachment signals a disillusionment, that she has also been found lacking by the sardonic eye of this one who plumbs the depths of the human spirit. Experience suggests that such distancing is merely an indication that the seer is hard at work and focusing energy into this less efficient tertiary function.

Extraverted Sensing

INFJs are twice blessed with clarity of vision, both internal and external. Just as they possess inner vision which is drawn to the forms of the unconscious, they also have external sensing perception which readily takes hold of worldly objects. Sensing, however, is the weakest of the INFJ's arsenal and the most vulnerable. INFJs, like their fellow intuitives, may be so absorbed in intuitive perceiving that they become oblivious to physical reality. The INFJ under stress may fall prey to various forms of immediate gratification. Awareness of extraverted sensing is probably the source of the "SP wannabe" side of INFJs. Many yearn to live spontaneously; it's not uncommon for INFJ actors to take on an SP (often ESTP) role.

Famous INFJs:

Nathan, prophet of Israel
Aristophanes
Chaucer
Goethe
Robert Burns, Scottish poet

U.S. Presidents:: Martin Van Buren; James Earl "Jimmy" Carter

Nathaniel Hawthorne
Fanny Crosby, (blind) hymnist
Mother Teresa of Calcutta
Fred McMurray (My Three Sons)
Shirley Temple Black, child actor, ambassador
Martin Luther King, Jr., civil rights leader, martyr
James Reston, newspaper reporter
Shirley McClain (Sweet Charity, ...)
Piers Anthony, author ("Xanth" series)
Michael Landon (Little House on the Prairie)
Tom Selleck
John Katz, critic, author
Paul Stookey (Peter, Paul and Mary)
U. S. Senator Carol Moseley-Braun (D-IL)
Billy Crystal
Garry Trudeau (Doonesbury)
Nelson Mandela
Mel Gibson
Carrie Fisher
Nicole Kidman
Jamie Foxx
Sela Ward
Mark Harmon
Gary Dourdan
Marg Helgaberger
Evangeline Lilly
Tori May

Introverted iNtuiting Feeling Judging

by Marina Margaret Heiss

INFJs are distinguished by both their complexity of character and the unusual range and depth of their talents. Strongly humanitarian in outlook, INFJs tend to be idealists, and because of their J preference for closure and completion, they are generally "doers" as well as dreamers. This rare combination of vision and practicality often results in INFJs taking a disproportionate amount of responsibility in the various causes to which so many of them seem to be drawn.

INFJs are deeply concerned about their relations with individuals as well as the state of humanity at large. They are, in fact, sometimes mistaken for extroverts because they appear so outgoing and are so genuinely interested in people -- a product of the Feeling function they most readily show to the world. On the contrary, INFJs are true introverts, who can only be emotionally intimate and fulfilled with a chosen few from among their long-term friends, family, or obvious "soul mates." While instinctively courting the personal and organizational demands continually made upon them by others, at intervals INFJs will suddenly withdraw into themselves, sometimes shutting out even their intimates. This apparent paradox is a necessary escape valve for them, providing both time to rebuild their depleted resources and a filter to prevent the emotional overload to which they are so susceptible as inherent "givers." As a pattern of behavior, it is perhaps the most confusing aspect of the enigmatic INFJ character to outsiders, and hence the most often misunderstood -- particularly by those who have little experience with this rare type.

Due in part to the unique perspective produced by this alternation between detachment and involvement in the lives of the people around them, INFJs may well have the clearest insights of all the types into the motivations of others, for good and for evil. The most important contributing factor to this uncanny gift, however, are the empathic abilities often found in Fs, which seem to be especially heightened in the INFJ type (possibly by the dominance of the introverted N function).

This empathy can serve as a classic example of the two-edged nature of certain INFJ talents, as it can be strong enough to cause discomfort or pain in negative or stressful situations. More explicit inner conflicts are also not uncommon in INFJs; it is possible to speculate that the causes for some of these may lie in the specific combinations of preferences which define this complex type. For instance, there can sometimes be a "tug-of-war" between NF vision and idealism and the J practicality that urges compromise for the sake of achieving the highest priority goals. And the I and J combination, while perhaps enhancing self-awareness, may make it difficult for INFJs to articulate their deepest and most convoluted feelings.

Usually self-expression comes more easily to INFJs on paper, as they tend to have strong writing skills. Since in addition they often possess a strong personal charisma, INFJs are generally well-suited to the "inspirational" professions such as teaching (especially in higher education) and religious leadership. Psychology and counseling are other obvious choices, but overall, INFJs can be exceptionally difficult to pigeonhole by their career paths. Perhaps the best example of this occurs in the technical fields. Many INFJs perceive themselves at a disadvantage when dealing with the mystique and formality of "hard logic", and in academic terms this may cause a tendency to gravitate towards the liberal arts rather than the sciences. However, the significant minority of INFJs who do pursue studies and careers in the latter areas tend to be as successful as their T counterparts, as it is *iNtuition* -- the dominant function for the INFJ type -- which governs the ability to understand abstract theory and implement it creatively.

In their own way, INFJs are just as much "systems builders" as are INTJs; the difference lies in that most INFJ "systems" are founded on human beings and human values, rather than information and technology. Their systems may for these reasons be conceptually "blurrier" than analogous NT ones, harder to measure in strict numerical terms, and easier to take for granted -- yet it is these same underlying reasons which make the resulting contributions to society so vital and profound.

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The Portrait of the Counselor Idealist (iNFj)

The Counselor Idealists are abstract in thought and speech, cooperative in reaching their goals, and enterprising and attentive in their interpersonal roles. Counselors focus on human potentials, think in terms of ethical values, and come easily to decisions. The small number of this type (little more than 2 percent) is regrettable, since Counselors have an unusually strong desire to contribute to the welfare of others and genuinely enjoy helping their companions. Although Counsleors tend to be private, sensitive people, and are not generally visible leaders, they nevertheless work quite intensely with those close to them, quietly exerting their influence behind the scenes with their families, friends, and colleagues. This type has great depth of personality; they are themselves complicated, and can understand and deal with complex issues and people.

Counselors can be hard to get to know. They have an unusually rich inner life, but they are reserved and tend not to share their reactions except with those they trust. With their loved ones, certainly, Counselors are not reluctant to express their feelings, their face lighting up with the positive emotions, but darkening like a thunderhead with the negative. Indeed, because of their strong ability to take into themselves the feelings of others, Counselors can be hurt rather easily by those around them, which, perhaps, is one reason why they tend to be private people, mutely withdrawing from human contact. At the same time, friends who have known a Counselor for years may find sides emerging which come as a surprise. Not that they are inconsistent; Counselors value their integrity a great deal, but they have intricately woven, mysterious personalities which sometimes puzzle even them.

Counselors have strong empathic abilities and can become aware of another's emotions or intentions -- good or evil -- even before that person is conscious of them. This "mind-reading" can take the form of feeling the hidden distress or illnesses of others to an extent which is difficult for other types to comprehend. Even Counselors can seldom tell how they came to penetrate others' feelings so keenly. Furthermore, the Counselor is most likely of all the types to demonstrate an ability to understand psychic phenomena and to have visions of human events, past, present, or future. What is known as ESP may well be exceptional intuitive ability-in both its forms, projection and introjection. Such supernormal intuition is found frequently in the Counselor, and can extend to people, things, and often events, taking the form of visions, episodes of foreknowledge, premonitions, auditory and visual images of things to come, as well as uncanny communications with certain individuals at a distance.

Mohandas Gandhi and Eleanor Roosevelt are examples of the Counselor Idealist (INFJ).

Full descriptions of the Counselor and the Idealists are in People Patterns or Please Understand Me II

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the above is results from http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes1.htm
so wat's urs?

Satan's Meeting

2007-03-06T22:27:00.001+08:00

Satan's Meeting
Satan called a worldwide convention fo demons. In his opening address he said, "We can't keep Christians from going to church. We can't keep them from reading their Bibles and knowing the truth.
"We can't even keep them from forming an intimate relationship with their savior. Once they gian that connection with Jesus, our pwer over them is broken.
"So let them go to their churches' let them have their covered dish dinners, but steal their time, so they don't have time to develop a relationship with Jesus Christ.
"This is what i want you to do", said the DEVIL.
"Distract them from gainin hold of their Savior and maintainin that vital connection throughout their day!"
"how shall we do this?" his Demons Shouted.
"keep them busy in the non-essentials of life and invent innumerable schemes to occupy their minds," he answered.
"tempt them to SPEND, SPEND, SPEND, and BORROW, BORROW, BORROW.
"Persuade the wives to go to work for long hours and the husbands to workd 6-7 days each week, 10-12 hours a day, so they can afford their empty lifestyles.
"keep them from spending time with thier children.
"As their families fragment, soon. their home will offer no escape from the pressures of work!
"Over-stimulate their minds so that they cannot heart that still, small voice.
"Entice them to play the radio or cassette player whenever they drive. To keep the TV,VCR, CD's and their PCs going constantly in their home and see to it htat every store and restaurant in the world plays non-biblical music constantly.
"This will jam their minds and break that union with Christ.
"Fill the voffe tables with magazines and newspapers.
"Pound their minds with the news 24 hours a day.
"Invade their driving moments with billboards."
Flood thier mailboxes with junk mail, mail order catalogs, sweepstakes, and every kind of newsletter and promotional offering free products, services and false hopes.
"Keep skinny, beutiful models on the magazines and TV so their husbands will believe that outward beuty is what's important, and they'll become dissatatisfied wit their wives.
"Keep the wives too tired to love their husbands at night. Give them headaches too!
If thedon't give their husbands the love they need, they will begin to look else were. That will fragment their families quickly!
"Give them Santa Claus to distract them from teaching their chidren the real meaning of Christmas.
Give them the Easter bunny so they won't talk about his resurrection and power over sin and death.
"Even in their recreation, let them be excessive. Have them return from their recreation exhausted.
"Keep them too busy to go out in nature and reflect on God's creation. Send them to amusement parks, sporting events, plays, concerts, and movies instead.
"KEEP THEM BUSY, BUSY, BUSY!"
"And when they meet for spirtual fellowship, involve them in gossip and small talk so that they leave with troubled consiences.
"Crowd their lives with so many good causes they have no time to seek power from Jesus. Soon they will be working in their own strength, sacrificing their health family for the good of the cause.
"IT WILL WORK!"
It was quite a plan!

The demons went eagerly to their assignments causein Christians everywhere to get busier and more rushed, going here and there. Having little time for their God or their families.
Having no time to tell others about the power of Jesus to change lives.
The question is .. Has the Devil been successgul in his scheme?

You be the Judge.
Does "BUSY" mean: B- Being U-Under S-Satans Y-YOke?

Again don't let santan take over our generations and the generations of others lets take it back its out time to shine with Jesus CHRIST by our side.

The Depth and Width of Your Calling

2007-03-06T22:00:00.000+08:00

The Depth and Width of Your Calling
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer. - 2 Corinthians 1:6

"God must love you a lot! He doesn't allow someone to go through the kinds of adversity you have experienced unless He has a special calling on your life." Those were the words said to me by two different mentors at two different times within a three-year period. Later I would learn another related truth from a respected man of God - a man who lives in another country, a man whom God uses throughout the globe. "The depth and width of your faith experiences are directly proportional to your calling." What were these men of God saying?

They were describing a process of preparation that God takes each of His leaders through when He plans to use them in significant ways. A "faith experience" is an event or "spiritual marker" in your life about which you can say, "That is where I saw God personally moving in my life." It is an unmistakable event in which God showed Himself personally to you. It was the burning bush for Moses; the crossing of the Red Sea or the Jordan River for the nation of Israel; Jacob's encounter with the angel. It was the feeding of the 5,000 for the disciples. It was the time when you saw God face to face in your life.

If God has plans of using you in the lives of many others, you can expect that He is going to allow certain faith experiences to come into your life in order to build a foundation that will be solid. That foundation is what you will be able to look back on to keep you faithful to Him in the times of testing. Each of us must have personal faith experiences in which we experience God personally so that we can move in faith to whatever He may call us. Do you need a personal faith experience right now in your life? Pray that God will reveal Himself to you. He delights in doing that.

2007-03-05T17:43:00.000+08:00

I still have class for this block...
and ya...

It is CREATIVE THINKING...
wat a dumb module...

Wat to do..
I am just trying the clear my one and only design elective...

anyway the first assignment is to do up a fruit in 30 ways... something like that...

I choose orange...

and so I did this...

lolz...

ok..

Knowledge + Action = Faith

2007-03-05T00:46:00.000+08:00

Knowledge + Action = Faith
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

For we also have had the gospel preached to us, just as they did; but the message they heard was of no value to them, because those who heard did not combine it with faith. - Hebrews 4:2

The people of Israel were called out of the bondage of Egyptian slavery. God said they would be brought out of 400 years of slavery so that they might worship Him. God desired to bring them into a place of milk and honey - the Promised Land. Yet that generation never entered into the Promised Land. Why? They never took what they knew in their head and transferred it to their heart. Finally, it never resulted in actions that were based on what they believed.

When I was a new Christian I heard an illustration of what belief and faith looked like when combined. If you were a trapeze artist and were skilled at walking across tightropes over high places, you might even be willing to walk across Niagara Falls. In fact, I would have confidence that you could because I had seen your abilities as a trapeze artist. However, if you asked me if you could push me in a wheelbarrow across Niagara Falls, you would be challenging me to put my beliefs into action. This requires faith, participation, and risk, which, until now, was based only on mental assent.

The writer of Hebrews is telling us that if we believe God but do not enter in to those promises, we are like the man who chooses not to get into the wheelbarrow. If we don't act on our beliefs, then we remain in the desert like the people of Israel who never received God's promises. They did not combine what they knew in their head with a faith that was put into action.

Has God spoken to you about an area in your life that requires a step of faith? Let God provide the courage, as He does the knowledge, to act in faith on what you believe.

Forgiveness Ensures Freedom

2007-03-03T18:44:00.001+08:00

Forgiveness Ensures Freedom
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

See to it that no one misses the grace of God and that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many. - Hebrews 12:15

In business and life the opportunity to harbor bitterness for a wrong suffered is great. We are given plenty of opportunities to grow bitter from relationships that bring hurt and pain. The writer of the Hebrews passage above admonishes us not to miss the grace of God so that we won't take up bitterness as a response to life's pain. He cautions us against this because he knows that a bitter root grows and grows until it eventually defiles many others through a wake of bitterness. If bitterness is allowed to take root, we become imprisoned to it. God's grace will no longer have as great an effect in our lives. We become ineffective, insensitive, and spiritually dead. We can even become physically ill from it. God does not live in bitterness. He lives in grace. He has provided grace for every person to walk in.

One day I was challenged to deal with an individual who hurt me terribly. I was faced with a decision. Would I choose bitterness, or would I choose grace? Oh, how my natural tendency was to choose bitterness. But God provided the courage to choose grace. With that grace came freedom-a freedom to love and even accept the person who was the source of such pain.

This is the real place where Christ's power is most revealed. We cannot live without His supernatural grace. Are you in need of grace today? It is there for the receiving. It will take courage to accept it and walk in it. This will be your step to freedom.

Tapping Into Our Secret Weapon

2007-03-03T18:43:00.000+08:00

Tapping Into Our Secret Weapon
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

He is always wrestling in prayer for you, that you may stand firm in all the will of God, mature and fully assured. - Colossians 4:12b

"Good morning. Before we begin our staff business meeting I wish to ask John to give us the intercessors' report regarding the direction of our new business development program."

"Our intercessors have been prayerfully reviewing the action plan I gave them. We believe the Lord is directing us in this way. However, our intercessors believe we may need to adjust our direction on this."

Does this sound like a far-fetched illustration of a modern-day company? If we are truly going to remove the separation of what we perceive as holy versus unholy, then we must make some paradigm shifts in our thinking.

The Lord has called you and me to be ministers of the gospel in and through the workplace. This means we must fight our battles, grow our companies, and minister to our employees and vendors through the power of the Holy Spirit. Intercessory prayer is the secret weapon of Spirit-led activity. Imagine having intercessors who are part of your team, committed to helping you make decisions in your business life "that you may stand firm in all the will of God, mature and fully assured." It is a comforting feeling to know the decisions you and I make during the course of a business day are in the will of God.

Some time ago the Lord showed me that I needed to find intercessors for my business. I needed to use intercessors in the daily decision process for my business. This has transformed the way I conduct business. No major decisions are made without prayerful review with my intercessory team. Intercessors are the front-line warriors raised up to do battle for the saints. Ask God to rise up intercessors who can support you as you go forth in the battlefield of the workplace.

Just randoms

2007-03-02T00:53:00.000+08:00

Ignore the previous post that I have posted...
I wonder what will I do if warren insult my piece of video?
haha as heard from quite a few that warren says bad comments about others' stuff in front of the guests....
If he did and I heard it...
I think that his booth will be gone...
haha...

Could be...
Anyway this is just randoms...