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sick sick sick...

when can i stop being sick...

this time round still slacking at hme...

i need air... and of coz $$$

hahaz

watever....

juz wanna throw out ...

bye

sianz

hhaha mc all the way to 25th nov... sianz... at hme nothing to do... and still have not recovered...

finally i posted something...

well, i didn't really went mia lately.... hahaz juz toooo sick to even get up from my bed...

dunno why oso???

firstly i got slight cough n i dun really care so after work i took a bathe n straight to bed... after i wake up, i felt giddy... and puke.... eeeeeeeeeeeee.... and i went to take my body temperature wat the hell. 38.9 .... den i went to the kitchen had some bread n took some of the fever syrup... andwent back into coma.... next morning 6am ++ i had my temperature check again, wtf... it is 39.3 ...

wat the .....

then i took a no pay leave from office an ddecided to rest at hme n i went into coma for the whole day and of coz i do take medicine...

wake up again, my temperature is 39.5 ...

getting higher each day...
den next morning went to see doc... doc say if this continues u will need to go for a blood test...

wat the...

luckily now temperature is between 37.8 to 38.4 ...

hhaahahaz

hope that i will be well again...

and maybe if possible tmr a monday i can go work le... yea... i miss my work...

=)

no title...

there is always a saying: if u really love someone, set him/her free...

is it always true to b like that?

i dunno...

is it easy to forget someone??? ans is NO...

well mayb i m juz talking nuts here... bye...

titleless...

i dunno wat happen...

i cried again after so many months of "tearless"...

i hate myself again...

i dunno wat exactly i want...

which path m i walking to...

some nitez i can't sleep...
i stone there thinking nothing...

some nitez i cry myself to sleep...

wat happen???

i dunno either...

i dunno myself well...
i wanna hide...

y i m here, in this world...
well, i dunno...

my life is a life without any smiles...

i feel empty...

watever...

life is different...
life is bad...

i dun wanna see tmr but i have to..

i m scared...
i m little...
i m nothing now...

helpless is me...
the deepest emotion of mine has arrived...

to turn left or turn rite???

i dunno...
as i m still stopping here...

life...
wat is it anyway...

watever...

update again...

watever is now my thinking...

i dunno why...

hahaz

well nvmd, let me update my blog again...

last nite my mom bought me a stefanie sun beijing concert vcd... happy... oh well, lolz...

den, sleep, didn't went online as i oso dun noe why...

den wake up at ten plus am...

running a fever n my voice a bit lost liao... hahaz...
den didn't go work...

but at bout 3pm, my father came hme n brought us to white sand where my brother today buy his bike... guess wat, a bike (originally cost $80), a chain, two bike lights and two bike bells.... cost how much??? u will nv guess it rite... hahaz...

it is $60....

wah y so cheap, hahaz as that shop is my father's friend shop... coolz.... next time i will go there n trade in my bike n change another as it is cheap hahaz...

then went home... ate my medicine n nothing else...

den now online... hahaz...

ya that's my life...

bye bye...

i dunno wat i m writing but i juz write...

wat happen to me....

i dunno

life is scary n dark n it is like living hell...

i cannot see the light ....

it is pitch darkness n i m all alone...

i m always battling on my own....

i wanted to escape but i cannot

i juz find myself running on the same spot....

wat is my life???

is it going to b like this forever...

i dun wan to b like this...

shd i stop.... or continue....

i dunno..

my update n personal thinking...

well, bought my new bicycle... nice n cycle everyday... hahaz...

and life is normal... nothing exciting...

hahaz...

well, days passed fast..
i dunno wat i want everyday...
juz like a walking corspe...
nobody knows the inner me...
feels like shouting to the world but something juz stop me...
i dunno wat...

listen to stef n fir songs ...
this time round i cried... i dunno y...
i juz feels like crying...

deep inside me is always a cry person...
y???

i dunno...
hahaaz...

sad is me... perhaps...
i m never happy..
all the smiles that i have are fake...

i wanted to find back myself but i couldn't....
i dun wana continue to be like that but control is hard...

watever...

05 nov 2004

04 nov

well, nothing much juz wake up n go work n slack during working time n go home...

ya only weide change his hp n number that's all...

but must thank my dear alot as she help me to change my blogskin n do links...
love u...

hahaz...

and on 05 nov, hopefully i m able to buy a bicycle.. hahaz

ya that's all n have fun...

=P

finally my update... hahaz

2nd nov.

hahaz nothing much...

juz "eat pizza"...

hahaz...

and then a ride along east coast....

very tiring....

ya that's it...

3rd nov...

hahaz wat i did???

well, juz work work work...

then go 85 market eat..

then wait for rain to stop...

then home sweet home...

hahaz...

a plenty of thoughts...

wat the...

all of a sudden a lot of thoughts...

i m feeling damn stressed up...

i dun like to b at home facing the four walls...

juz feeling hard to breathe...

i need my own life..

lead my own life...

i love the sea...

the sand...

mayb this is the life that i have long to pursue...

and life is juz life...

ad why there's a lot of thinking in me...

i oso dunno...

mayb needed to face the reality of life...

i have been hiding myself...

ya..

those who know me well will know bout me keeps hiding myself... as i dun wan to look at this scary world...

i m mostly quiet as i think inside me...

well, i think i have enough typing for today...

so bye n i will continue blogging tmr if i come hme early hahaz...

mostly will not come hme early de hahaz...

bye bye... need to sleep... so as to prevent more thinking... =P

and sorry to my dear as i neglect u again...

my deep me now...

juz feeling sad n a down feeling now...

my dad all of a sudden quarrel with me... i know my temper super well n i juz burst out...

i juz dun understand my dad well enough...

i dun wan to live a life that is so stress up by my dad...

from young till now... wat he wanted to me to do i have already done it...

he doesn't wanted me to b in design sch but i choose to b as i wanted a life of my own n maybe this makes him so angry...

i dun wanna be controlled...

need a break...

01 nov

hahaz yesterday nite forgot to blog... hahaz

so today's blog will b a long one...

well, life is beautiful...

especially learning how to control a bike even more...

well, hahaz nothing much during working hrs yesterday....

well, went to great world city with my family...

and ate kimchi soup set.. yum yum...

and finally bought stefanie sun album... nice... this album is out of the usual stefanie way of singing... hahaz... coolz...

and then work lor...

then during the nite went to fengshan food centre to eat with weide, angela, and ah kiat... wow... chicken wings n minced meat noodles... hahaz...

hahaz they got bike but i dun have and later they say wan to go pasir ris beach... hahaz so i say ok... and i stand on weide's bike's stand for almost an hr to pasir ris beach... hahaz once reach there leg super tired... hahaz... then went try cycling on angela's bike... hahaz...

then fun... very fun... nite cycling is much more cool...

then stand on weide's bike back bedok for another hr and reached home bout 3am... hahaz

then sleep...

and today my off day... sianz.... slac all the way hahaz... that's all...

=P

have fun ...