31st oct

now juz feeling bored...

hahaz...

30th oct>>>>

working as usual...

then meet my dear....

no place to go...

so walk around bedok...

then go to simei east pt...

walk walk...

heard stefanie sun new song ... very nice...

den go to pets safari.... cute....

then go n walk her hme but didn't go hme first sit at an area and tok tok...

then kanna disturb by the irritating noise... so shift place...

then continue toking n ..........

then send her hme...

then back to bedok...

drop my library bk into bk drop...

then went hme...

sianz all the way...

sleeping soonz...

nitez everyone...

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30th oct

sianz...

i mean yesterday is work work work... me n my dear HOMA hahaz...

then go home n go online...

have a chat with stanley n know that he is stress up but juz wanna to tell him follow ur heart...

and anyway that's all for today...

bye..

29th oct

Happy One month anniversary between u and me... hahaz

i have not forgotten as i have write i down liao...

juz playing with u...

well wish u happy...

i love u...

28th oct

well i m back home...

hahaz when i reach home i went for my bath n took my breakfast n lunch together n went for a straight 9 hrs sleep... hahaz... now still feeling tired...

when wish to go wild wild wet but my body n mind juz wanna sleep n as for me, i cannot really swim so hahaz... i have a phobia with water as when i was three i nearly kanna drown in the sea... hahaz...

and last nite i went to chalet very late at bout nine plus pm.... hahaz... without my dear accompany me as she got something on... hahaz... and when i reached the busstop i met max n siyuan they r going hme... sad siaz... nvmd...

hahaz

and continue my journey into the chalet...

and when i reach there it was quite a little ppl... but i was tired as the previous nite i had only an hr sleep and juz knock off from work... sianz...

hahaz

then talk talk n nothing else..

well, the rest leave for beach except for a few of us who stay behind and joining them later... and drank some white wine n know a new friend (errrrrrrrr forgot ur name, sorry)...

hahaz...

and go to the beach... but wat the ______..... hahaz as juz reach there n not more than 30 mis we r leaving back to the chalet....

well hahaz...

then have a long chat with stanley....until it rains and went in n have a lot of chats n hear stories from a gp of crappy friends while most of them r asleep...

hahaz

but i was also sleeping for 30 mins... hahaz

ya that's all...

without u accompany me i do feel lonely... so i dun wan to have this feeling anymore...

27th oct

well today nothing to interesting...

emmm...

when i reach my workplace siew lian says got something to tell me but at the end she says she forgot hahaz...

then count money listen briefing... hahaz...

then open counter... sianz not much ppl n didn't realy run counter...

hahaz too bad my dear cannot accompany me, as she is in YMCA hahaz...

well packing n off to chalet soonz and tmr off day so...

see u bye bye

26 oct a lot of things happen

well let me start from early in the morning before the sun rises...

at 6.30am i m at ntuc reporting for work...

then go n do some plastic bags work n stay at counter...

today i very good didn't run...

then serve customers lor n got rain hahaz

and at bout 12.30pm, all ntuc screen begin to offline... that means the changing shift staff cannot sign in n so those who r still keying for customers will have to continue... lucky me sign off liao n cannot sign in back so i dun need to help clear q as it is super long as only a few counters r still manage to operate...

then i go count $$$ and balance... heng ahz...

suppose to meet my laopo at 2.30pm but both of us r late... hahaz but she is slightly earlier than me... hahaz

then sit bus to tampines...

walk walk at tm... challenger.... cash converters... spotlight .... this fashion ... then spend most of our time at CS... and we went to the forth level n there's this christian shop n take a look at their bibles n some cute bookmarks... then go fifth level n spotted tarot cards... cute le... me n my dear bought one each she bought cardcaptor sakura and me final fantasy... hahaz and each cost of $8.90... cheap rite... then she also bought one of her idols tony sun pic... and put it in her so called wallet hahaz...

then we went all the way down n since she looks hard in digging her money out i juz bought her a blue dolpin handphone accessory... hahaz

and she looks happy as she used to lost it... hahaz

and then we went to the chalet...

and have fun...

know a new friend Martin, quite a crappy person... hahaz...

and stanley can cook very well yumyum... hahaz

and call it off a day at 10 plus n send my dear home...

and at 11 plus reach bedok interchange n saw my friends playing poker n i went over to disturd them...

afterall, angela, weide and andrew send me home with their bike... hahaz

and the end...

i want to buy a bike... hahaz...

love....

this is a writing by my friend if i m not wrong hahaz... well hahaz .... read it...


Walking on a path that leads to my biggest mistake ever made.

With tears in my eyes and fears in my heart.Every step i take the fear in me grew bigger.

Snow falling,landing geantly on the forest ground.Is cold but i can hardly feel a thing.

I am not sick but my heart's aching,terribly unlike any thing i've felt before.

It has bee years since i last seen you eye to eye.

I should have never have ask you out on a jouney that ends out destiny.

My carelessness cause your goodbye.You save me from falling and you left without me.

Standing there watching you fall futher away from me,lossing you my heart is breaking.

Remembering the last word you told me..."I LOVE YOU".Tears bust out of my eyes,

i am sorry i have broke my promise again....You once said that you would do anything just

to make me happy,but now i only ask to see you standing infront of me.I want to see you

please........A part of me is missing.If only i have done something quick it would not be

you i have been lossing.

You have done so much for me what more could i ask for?You are more than a

thank you i wil be saying more than a kiss i would be giving, you are more then anything in the world to me,but i've never made a point to tell you this.....If i would only have stop for a second

or two to tell you how much you mean to me,and yet you still love me without a doubt.

I'm sorry........ i'm sorry.

Time has pass i have bee patience for so long hoping that you will come

back one day and i have been longing for you so much.How could i pertend to

be so strong......Not to worry i will live my life to the fullest like how as you were alive.

Cause i still love you.

25th oct, mon

today is a bored day...

luckily didn't late for work...

hahaz today actually work 6.30am but come at 12pm hahaz... dunno watz... hahaz

and didn't kanna scolding hahaz...

today ahz open less than an hr counter.... the rest of the time do stock hahaz...

sianz...

earnings for today less than one thousand at the end still short $10...

nvmd... when i get my pay then i pay back lor... sad siaz...

and today must sleep really early as tmr work 6.30am. hahaz...

wah so early siaz...

nvmd...

as tmr got chalet.... yea... can play...

well..... qiuwei mayb coming too hahaz...

ok la this is it for today....

enjoy....

sianz....

very sianz...
very bored...
dunno wat to do...
=P

my back story

i dunno y i wanna to write this down but maybe i juz wanna it to put kept in this blog...

i noe that ppl who reads my blog will ask who is wendaline...

i dun wanna lie...

she is my ex (shd i say is my ex)

anyway it is my fault anyway ...

i dun wan it to happen...

but it has happen...

i know this gal when i was in sec 3. she is oso in sec 3 too but dif sch.
we went on happily n so we go as stead...

oh well, we had been together for one year... that can b considered long...

but a thing happen that i actually till now still cannot forgive myself...

i wanna meet her and i was waiting for her near a junction. then i saw her n she was smiling(that was her last smile.) she crossed the road but car juz came by n knock her down ...
i was shocked... i dunno how to react...

but all i know is that she left me...

forever...

till now i still can't forgive myself... why must it be like that... why everything happens to me...

my family n some of friends do not know bout this as i didn't intend to tell them...

crying has been years...
pain can nv stop...
regrets is forever...
tears keeps flowing...

shd i give up?

7 days to live

If I had seven days to live
And you'd ask me what i'd do
I'd spend my first six days with God
and my last day with you.

On the first day, I'd ask the Lord above
To take care of the one I love
'Coz there's no one else I'd rather have
Than you my one and only love.

I'll pray to Him the second day
to take away your fears
'coz it'll only break my heart
to see my love in tears

The third day i'd be asking Him
To forgive me for my sins
and if I may, I'd beg Him pls
For another chance to live.

The fourth day's for thanksgiving
For the blessings we receive
He had blessed me when I met you-
The best gift i received.

On the fifth day will be prayers
for all of mankind
that all may find peace in their hearts
and soon will reunite.

A prayer for preparation
will be on the sixth day,
that he may take me to Heaven
and not the other way.

I'll thank God for the seventh day,
'Coz i'll pass my time with you
that before I leave this world, you'll know
how much I loved you...

when i feel troubled

i will go to the beach pasir ris beach so friends u shd noe where to find me... when u can't contact me...

wat a day...

today is 23rd oct 2004.

oh well, another busy day... -.-

everyday seems to b the same....

last nite tears accompany me to sleep...
dunno why?

this morning nothing interesting...

afternoon while working my colleagues(aunties) keep on asking me to change $ with her...
and i keep on saying wait until i get mad.... i juz shouted shut up... and wait at my counter while serving customers... hahaz and they really shut up...

evening i went home...

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in my heart or mind....

I dunno wat's wrong with me... i cry myself to sleep... i juz dunno wat i want...
i shd turn left or turn rite?
shd i juz give up everything...
i hate the stress ...
i cannot take it anymore...

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but one word qiuwei i hope that u will give me time...
read ur msg liao...
u noe me well...
i noe in my heart there's still wendaline...
but i noe that it is impossible for me n her together as she is gone forever...
i m trying hard to maintain me n u...
as i dun wanna lose u....
if u r reading i love u....

the end...

results

oh well before i get to know my results my feelings is in a mess...
i always think that i need to take sup paper...

but heng ahzzzzzzzzzzzz

i pass all.. =P

so happy

hahaz

oh well a mixture of feelings now..

had a dream last nite...
dreamt of my ex and saw that we r at the place where she leave me forever... she was happy that i m able to put down my burden... but i noe that it is not true at all... i m still thinking of her deep inside me... i noe that now i m in a relationship n shdn't think of it but it failed....

oh well... watever...

anyway to qiu wei , i will try n put 100% on u...

and to wendaline, i will miss u n will not forget u....

sorry again new one

i forgot my password n login name for the old one liao... hahaz

anyway today i shd b at the halloween party but i didn't go due to work...

work is more important to me so sorry guys esp stanley mayb u r now covering my duties.... hahaz

oh well....