Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Business as Usual


And she gave birth to her firstborn, a son. She wrapped Him in cloths and placed Him in a manger, because there was no room for them in the inn. - Luke 2:7

Imagine if the God of the universe decided to visit planet earth as a new baby and you were given the opportunity to host His first night-in your hotel! Think of the future promotional possibilities..."God stayed here His first night!" You could sell tickets to see the room where He was born. What an opportunity to make history as a small-business owner!

God had need of a business owner's establishment one night 2,000 years ago. But there was no room for God in this business that night. There was no room for the unexpected miracle; no awareness of what was taking place in the heavenlies, no sign that God might be reaching out to this workplace believer to be used like no other in all of history.

Every day God has need of some man or woman's job. He wants to demonstrate miracles in their work. But there is no room in their work for Jesus. He is not asked to participate.

That night God slept in a stable. That night a business opportunity from Heaven was missed. It was business as usual.

May we all have spiritual eyes and ears to know when our Master needs what He has entrusted to us for His purposes.

TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman
12-25-2007

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Today's Prayer

God, I know that you gave Your best for me. Please forgive me for falling short; for the sin in my life; for taking You for granted. I want to give back my best to You. Thank you for the special gifts You have given...the gift of Your only begotten Son, of eternal life, of fellowship with You, of hope for a future, of Your presence, of all You do and all You give, of Your unconditional love. I praise You and lift You high today, as I celebrate the birth of Jesus. I love You. Merry Christmas.

Monday, November 19, 2007

emo post

I am too lazy to blog in my personal blog, since I log in to here, I will blog here.
As I believe not much people read my blog.

Well, yesterday went to Pasir Ris beach on a rainy day.
Walk in the rain.
Thought of alot of things in my mind.

Been thru alot.
At times I am just sick of it.

In front of others, i look strong.
I am able to control all my emotions.

But when I just walk away from people,
I will just be myself again.

no wonder people call me an emo kid.

whatever manz...

life is not easy, I am tired.

Sunday, November 04, 2007

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

MY LAST MYSELF POST HERE...

Somehow I no longer understand myself...

It is not the amount of stress that I am handling now...

As I think it is nothing...

But somehow or rather...
I still can't get over my little past.

I want to get out of it but dunno how...

It had been years...

I really thought I am okay... recovered...
I even keep telling myself I am okay,
deceiving myself...

At times I cant take it...
I dunno...

Maybe I need help this time...

My mind is confused...
Emotion is once again into my life...

This will be the last post that I will post here about my emotion.
I will have a space that I will not disclosed...

Sorry people, I need my private space now on.

Thank you for your understanding.


REGARDS

JACKY WINSON SIM

depression

What is depression?

When doctors talk about depression, they mean the medical illness called major depression. Someone with major depression has symptoms like those listed in the box below nearly every day, all day, for 2 weeks or longer.

If you're depressed, you may also have headaches, other aches and pains, digestive problems and problems with sex. An older person with depression may feel confused or have trouble understanding simple requests.



Symptoms of depression

  • No interest or pleasure in things you used to enjoy
  • Feeling sad or empty
  • Crying easily or crying for no reason
  • Feeling slowed down or feeling restless and unable to sit still
  • Feeling worthless or guilty
  • Weight gain or loss
  • Thoughts about death or suicide
  • Trouble thinking, recalling things or focusing on what you're doing
  • Trouble making everyday decisions
  • Problems sleeping, especially in the early morning, or wanting to sleep all of the time
  • Feeling tired all of the time
  • Feeling numb emotionally, perhaps even to the point of not being able to cry


What causes depression?

Depression seems to be related to a chemical imbalance in the brain that makes it hard for the cells to communicate with one another. Depression also seems to be genetic (to run in families).

Depression can be linked to events in your life, such as the death of someone you love, a divorce or job loss. Taking certain medicines, abusing drugs or alcohol, or having other illnesses can also lead to depression. Depression isn't caused by personal weakness, laziness or lack of willpower.


How is depression diagnosed?

If you're having symptoms of depression, be sure to tell your doctor so you can get help. Don't expect your doctor to be able to guess that you're depressed just by looking at you. The sooner you seek treatment, the sooner the depression will lift.

Once you tell your doctor how you're feeling, he or she may ask you some questions about your symptoms, about your health and about your family history of health problems. Your doctor may also give you a physical exam and do some tests.


How is depression treated?

Depression can be treated with medicines, or a special type of counseling called psychotherapy, or with both.


What about medicines?

Many medicines can be used to treat depression. These medicines are called antidepressants. They correct the chemical imbalance in the brain that causes depression.

Antidepressants work differently for different people. They also have different side effects. So, even if one medicine bothers you or doesn't work for you, another may help. You may notice improvement as soon as 1 week after you start taking the medicine. But you probably won't see the full effects for about 6 to 8 weeks. You may have side effects at first but they tend to lessen after a couple of weeks.

How long will I need medicine?

How long you'll need to take the medicine depends on your depression. Your doctor may want you to take medicine for 4 to 6 months or longer. You need to take the medicine long enough to reduce the chance that the depression will come back. Talk with your doctor about any questions you have about your medicine


What is psychotherapy?

In psychotherapy, you talk with your family doctor, a psychiatrist or a therapist about things that are going on in your life. The focus may be on your thoughts and beliefs or on your relationships. Or the focus may be on your behavior, how it's affecting you and what you can do differently. Psychotherapy often lasts for a limited time, such as 8 to 20 visits.


Will I need to go to the hospital?

Depression can usually be treated through visits to your doctor. Treatment in the hospital may be needed if you have other medical conditions that could affect your treatment or if you're at high risk of suicide.


How long will the depression last?

This depends on how soon you get help. Left untreated, depression can last for weeks, months or even years. The main risk in not getting treatment is suicide. Treatment can help depression lift in 6 to 8 weeks, or less.



Getting through depression

  • Pace yourself. Don't expect to do everything you normally can. Set a realistic schedule.
  • Don't believe all of your negative thinking, such as blaming yourself or expecting to fail. This thinking is part of depression. These thoughts will go away as your depression lifts.
  • Get involved in activities that make you feel good or feel like you've achieved something.
  • Avoid making big life decisions when you're depressed. If you must make a big decision, ask someone you trust to help you.
  • Avoid drugs and alcohol. Both make depression worse. Both can cause dangerous side effects with your antidepressants.
  • Physical activity seems to cause a chemical reaction in the body that may improve your mood. Exercising 4 to 6 times a week for at least 30 minutes each time is a good goal. But even less activity can be helpful.
  • Try not to get discouraged. It will take time for your depression to lift fully.

Suicide

People with depression sometimes think about suicide. This thinking is part of the depression. If you have thoughts about hurting yourself, tell your doctor, friends or family, or call your local suicide hot line, such as the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.

Get help right away. The good news is that there are people who can help you, and depression can be treated.



Reasons to get help for depression

  • Early treatment helps keep depression from getting worse or lasting a long time.
  • Thoughts of suicide are common in people with depression. The risk of suicide is higher if you don't get treatment for your depression. When depression is successfully treated, the thoughts of suicide will go away.
  • Treatment can help you return to your "normal" self, enjoying life.
  • Treatment can help prevent depression from coming back.



Damn it...

I think I am having DEPRESSION.

I hope not...

nvmd...

Sunday, October 14, 2007

chinese quizzzzzz...

1.以下这三种动物,哪一样是你最喜爱的?
(a)猫    (b)鸟    (c)狗
(答案在下面...不要偷看唷...)

Ans: (c)狗

2. 你最喜爱什麼颜色?
(a)粉红色  (b)白色   (c)黑色
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

Ans: )黑色

3.列举一个与你相同性别的人之名字
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

Ans: -someone-

4. 列举一个与你相反性别的人之名字
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

Ans: -someone-

5. 你较喜欢山脉,还是海滩?
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

Ans: 海滩

6. 你喜欢看日出,还是日落?
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

Ans: 日落

7. 由一至十中,你最喜欢哪个数目字?
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

Ans: 6

8. 你最喜欢什麼植物?
(a)红玫瑰  (b)蕨类植物 (c)已经枯萎的植物
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

Ans: (b)蕨类植物

9 你最喜欢哪个季节?
(a)春季   (b)冬季   (c)夏季
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

Ans: (b)冬季

10. 默许两个愿望
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

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解答:

1.(解答)
(a)猫:你最爱你自己
(b)鸟:你喜欢听你自己的谈话
(c)狗:你把别人看得比自己还重

2.(解答)
(a)粉红色:你是豪放派的人
(b)白色:你是正统派的人
(c)黑色:你是生活在边缘的人

3.(解答)
他/她是你的幸运之星

4.(解答)
你将与他/她成为非常非常亲密的朋友

5.(解答)
(a)山脉:会早婚
(b)海滩:会晚婚

6.(解答)
(a)日出:你是一个似早晨的人且你得到更多
的任务完成
(b)日落:你是一个浪漫的人且你那缓慢地迷
恋的时候到了

7.(解答)
你所选出来的号码代表你在找到真命天子之前
谈过的变爱
次数

8.(解答)
(a)红玫瑰:你的生活是完美的,可是有时候
会多剌而令
人苦恼
(b)蕨类植物:你的生活将是可预言的,且会
稳健平安
(c)已经枯萎的植物:你是一个有病的人,生
活如一滩死水

9.(解答)
(a)春季:你是一个无法自拔的浪漫主义者
(b)冬季:你是一个坚持善良的人
(c)夏季:你是一个对任何事物皆坦率的人

10.(解答)
如果你将此页发给
(a)一个人:你的第一个愿望将会实现
(b)五个人:你的两个愿望皆会实现
(c)十个人或是更多的人:两个愿望将会在两
天内实现。

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Ignore me...

For some reason which I dunno.
I have been feeling not right lately.

A lot of emotions had been gushing within me.
I saw flashback that I always wanted to put down.
For some reason I can't.

I dunno, how much longer can I take it.

At times, I feel like ending it...
But for some reason, I hold back...

I need to breathe...
I wanted to hide myself...

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Fucked

Health haven't been okay.
And more arrows are being shot.

I am tired.
Tired of this arrowing shooting game.

At times like this, my body really cannot take it.
Today I am on MC.
Went to the polyclinic to see the doctor.

Then he was like saying, ur heatbeat is fast.
I was like saying okay.

At first he wanted to refer me to hospital but I ask dun need.
As tmr I will have my medical appointment at National Heart Centre.

I dislike the way that I am now.
I dislike the things that I do.

Even if I am doing video or 3d now, I think I will also dislike it.
As it is because I am just doing it for the sake of doing.
I dun wan to be a slave that follows idea.

Fucked it.
I am a guy who cares not the rank but quality.

My body is very sick and tired.

I dun noe whether how long this war will end.
I do not know.

I wish that it will end early with an ending that I wanted.

But in this organization, I believe otherwise.
But no matter what.

Unless now is the end of my life,
I will still continue to fight my way thru this war.

Fucked, why am I so emo.
damn it.

Sunday, September 30, 2007

Jacky for dunno what reason, I have been rather emo.

Fuck la.

There's a lot of emotion running thru my mind.
I dun noe why.

And my body is tired and sick.

My mind is tired and gloomy.

I wish that I am okay.

I dun wan to get depression...

ROARRRRRR...

jacky is still normal.

Saturday, September 22, 2007

rant

hmmm

Dunno why... Lately I have been feeling DARK.
Wa Lao dun tell me the emo me is coming back...

Well, had been busy busy busy in camp.
To all my friends out there (this inclusive my platoon or mayb coy mates)
Good luck on ur next journey of national service.

I might want to get myself excuse from night duties as scary.
As I dun like small and dark spaces.
It is a horror.
ya i got Claustrophobia.

Health is just okay lately.

But I have been thinking alot lately.
especially my past.

haiz
ok
I better not rant so much.





Bastet



You look for balance and harmony, anxious, devoted. Often rash and impatient.

Colors: male: yellow ochre, female: grey
Compatible Signs:
Sekhmet, Horus
Dates:
Jul 14 - Jul 28, Sep 23 - Sep 27, Oct 3 - Oct 17

Role: Goddess of cats, women, and secrets
Appearance:
Cat or cat-headed woman
Sacred animals:
cat


What is Your Egyptian Zodiac Sign?
Designed by CyberWarlock of Warlock's Quizzles and Quandaries

The Caitiff









You aren't sure where you came from. Perhaps your sire did an embrace and run. Or maybe your sire was an outcast himself. Either way, your powers are unique and really don't belong to any clan...or maybe a little from each. Because you of these circumstances, you aren't really sure where you belong. You tend to wander and do a bit of soul searching in your eternal life. Maybe some day...you have a while after all.

What Vampire Clan Do You Belong To?

The Caitiff

The clansless. Caitiffs, are a new aspect to the vampire's society. They don't have anyone to teach them Disciplines, and no one to tell them of the Traditions. This doesn't mean they don't know any Disciplines, they could very well make their own, but usually they figure out a few small tricks to a few Disciplines. Some may even group together every once in a while, but not likely. They prefer their freedom, and the will to do what they will.

Caitiff are vampires with no clan to call their own. This usually happens because their sire despised them and left them to die. And the occasional victim of feeding gets lucky, and some how gets some of the vampires blood. They are also the rebellious ones, and some take leave of their sire and do as they will, most of the time moving to a new city or some where remote.

Most of the other clans look upon the Caitiff as trash, weak blooded, no knowledge of who and what they are and leave them to them selves as long as they don't cause any trouble, and most defiantly don't break the Masquerade.

Your Japanese Name Is...

Shuichi Inoue




Jacky Winson Sim Soon Heng


Your Japanese Name Is...

Yo Inoue
What's your Japanese Name?

Sim Soon Heng Jacky Winson

So which one is my japanese name?
hmmmmmm

Gently Leading

Gently Leading
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

So let my lord go on ahead of his servant, while I move along slowly at the pace of the droves before me and that of the children, until I come to my lord in Seir. - Genesis 33:14

Business often determines that we move at a pace that can put incredible stresses upon people and relationships. Jacob was a man who learned to manipulate and control outcomes. He even stole the birthright of his brother, Esau, through trickery. The Bible speaks of Jacob as a man who strived with God. He knew how to force situations to his advantage. It took years for God to break down all the rough edges of Jacob so that he could be worthy of becoming the patriarch of the 12 tribes of Israel. God saw something in Jacob that He could use.

Most men go through a "warrior stage" of life. In this stage of manhood, the man is known by what he does, what he accomplishes, and he is totally defined by his performance. It can be a tumultuous time for the man and those close to him. It is often signified by broken relationships because the goal is often more important than the way the goal is accomplished. When I meet with a man, I can easily determine what stage of life he is in by hearing him talk.

Jacob had successfully passed through his warrior stage based on the verse above. It takes someone mature to be able to "move along slowly at the pace of the droves before me and that of the children." Leaders who never come to understand this may be successful materially but fail at the most important aspect of leadership-leading at a pace that his followers can maintain. The roads are full of wives, children, and workers who cannot keep up with the pace of leaders and are left behind with broken dreams, broken hearts, and unfulfilled promises.

Are you a person who is more concerned with outcome than how you achieve the outcome? Can the people around you describe you as someone who leads at a pace that ensures respect and admiration? Ask the Lord for the ability to be a godly leader who understands the condition of his flock and the pace in which you can lead without alienating.

Sunday, September 09, 2007

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Thursday, August 23, 2007

quiz







You are 60% likeable
You are a likeable person. You are fiercely loyal to your friends and you have a lot of them. You have may have a few enemies but it is only because they don't really know the real you.

'How Likeable are You?' at QuizGalaxy.com




The Picto-Personality Test




You are a person who is incredibly tranquil and values peace above all else.

When alone, you appreciate being able to do nothing if you want to, and setting your own pace for things.

You are intelligent. You use your time to its fullest potential and will go very far in life.

In the future you will be happy and live richly.

Take this Test at QuizGalaxy.com








Your Dating Style:
Honest Relationship (Self-Directed)


You like to have an honest relationship with someone. You may or may not be faithful, but you would always tell them what's going on with you.





'What is your dating style?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Friday, August 10, 2007

100807

Today is my First day to report to HQ GUARDS.
It is like a good 45 mins bus trip (969, 171).
Very sianz...

The people there that I have met today are really friendly.
As all the bosses are on leave so I don't get to see a lot.

Well I really wonder, I also stay in the office over here, like Tekong.
But why time flies faster over here...

hmmmm...
I dunno...

I am happy about this posting as it is a stay out one and is a 8am to 5.30pm one.
5-days week.
=)

Thank GOD for this posting as I actually tell myself on that wed morning that if I dun get post out by this week, the national day book in I will bring in 2 packs of cigarettes. hahaha... But seems that GOD wanted me to quit badly... I mean I have quit it like long ago... HE wanted me to not touch cigarettes. haha...

But my BIGGEST worry about this camp is SNAKES.

People who know me will know that I have phobia with water and snake.

hahhahahaa....

okok... that's all....

Thursday, August 09, 2007

national day


HAPPY 42nd BIRTHDAY TO SINGAPORE.

"Majulah Singapura" (Onward Singapore)

Words by: Zubir Said
Music by: Zubir Said
Adopted: 1965

MALAY LYRICS

Mari kita rakyat Singapura
Sama-sama menuju bahagia
Cita-cita kita yang mulia
Berjaya Singapura

Marilah kita bersatu
Dengan semangat yang baru
Semua kita berseru
Majulah Singapura
Majulah Singapura

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ENGLISH TRANSLATION

Come, fellow Singaporeans
Let us progress towards happiness together
May our noble aspiration bring
Singapore success

Come, let us unite
In a new spirit
Let our voices soar as one
Onward Singapore
Onward Singapore

The National Anthem was written in the wake of nationalism during 1956-57. Its composer and author, Zubir Said, had written it on the basis of two words, "Majulah Singapura" or "Onward Singapore" (the national motto). The patriotic song was first performed on December 3, 1959, at the installation of the new head of state and the introduction of the state (later national) flag. The anthem was used as a state song within Malaysia, of which it was a part, and was adopted as a national anthem in 1965 upon independence.

In 2000, the anthem underwent a slight change in that the official arrangement was made more solemn and inspiring. The new version, arranged by Phoon Yew Tien, had its debut at the Victoria Concert Hal in November of that year and was officially unveiled in January, 2001.

Although Singapore has four official languages (Malay, English, Mandarin Chinese, and Tamil), the anthem is only to be sung in the original Malay lyrics, not any translation. (As such, the English translation is presented here, as on other anthem pages, as a guide for reader comprehension only.)





The Causes of Failure

TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman


You cannot stand against your enemies until you remove it. - Joshua 7:13b

The first battle for the people of Israel traveling from Egypt was at Jericho, once they crossed the Jordan River. God had given them a great victory at Jericho, and Joshua was now ready to move to their next battle at Ai. After they spied out the enemy camp, they determined they needed only a few thousand men to gain victory. They went up against Ai only to fail miserably. They lost 32 men in a battle that should have been an easy victory, but instead they were forced to retreat. Joshua was devastated. "Ah, Sovereign Lord, why did You ever bring this people across the Jordan to deliver us into the hands of the Amorites to destroy us?" (Josh. 7:7a)

In this case, the people fell short because they failed to uphold the standard God had set for them. God had told them not to take any plunder from their first battle. However, Achan hid some forbidden treasures, and God was now judging the entire nation for one man's sin.

Whenever we act without God's complete blessing on our activity, we can expect God to thwart our plans. God's word to Joshua was that he could not stand against his enemies as long as there was disobedience among his troops.

Whenever we launch a business endeavor, we should make sure there are no unclean things in our dealings that would allow us to be vulnerable to a failed effort: unpaid vendors, disgruntled employees who were not treated fairly, lawsuits, dishonesty. Many of these things can hinder God from blessing our enterprises. These things can remove the shield of protection from our workplace, which God wants to bless, but cannot because He is committed to upholding righteousness. His name is blemished when unrighteousness is allowed to permeate our lives.

Is the Lord able to bless your enterprises today? If not, you may need to go back and clean up a few things before He can do so. Take whatever steps are needed to ensure the blessing of God today.

Sunday, August 05, 2007

Friday, June 15, 2007

update

Some updates before I go shave my head, and to a place where boys become man.
well, somehow, that sentence is a little wrong as why tekong or NS is a place where boys become man???

Is it just becoz u will develop some muscles, be darker, then u r considered man?

lolz

oh well, on the 12 of this month, I went for my 2nd check up.
as usual got to wait for 9 weeks later to do my blood test and another 1 more week for my 3rd check up.

sianz

then on the 14 of june, I was having a bad fever. Not that bad actually. Just 39.7 degree. lol...
then todaY still feeling sick although fever drop liao.

tmr morning to tekong...

Stanley and Justin, see u dere as today is the big day for u 2...
hahahahaa

but also see first bah... as if my cough, my flu, my fever still bad, then I shall consider MC.
if not I will be a good Boy(I mean man) hahaha...

Perception Is Not Reality

Perception Is Not Reality
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

The lions may roar and growl, yet the teeth of the great lions are broken. - Job 4:10

In the advertising business we often say that "perception is reality" for the person who views our advertising message. It does not matter whether the audience believes the message to be true, only that they perceive it to be true. Their actions will be the same whether they believe it or only perceive it.

The enemy of our souls is very good at this game. He may bring on us what we perceive to be true when it is a lie. It may appear that there is no way around a situation. He may bring great fear on us. When we buy into his lie, we believe only what we have chosen to perceive to be true. It usually has no basis of truth. Such was the case when Peter looked on the waters during a night boat journey with the other disciples. At first glance, he and the disciples screamed with fear, thinking that what they saw was a ghost. It was actually Jesus.

Satan's name means "accuser." He travels to and fro to accuse the brethren. He brings an impressive front to all he does, yet behind that front is a weak, toothless lion with a destination that has already been prepared in the great abyss. He knows his destination, but he wants to bring as many with him as possible; so he often has a big roar, but little bite.

The next time some event comes into your life that creates fear and trembling, first determine the source. Look past the emotions and evaluate the situation in light of God's Word. Perception is not always reality.

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

When Planting Yields No Fruit

When Planting Yields No Fruit
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

You have planted much, but have harvested little.... - Haggai 1:6

Have you ever worked and worked only to yield very little from your efforts? Such was the case for the workplace believers during the time of the prophet Haggai. Finally, God spoke through the prophet Haggai to inform the people why their efforts were not yielding any fruit. There was a specific reason this was happening.

"You expected much, but see, it turned out to be little. What you brought home, I blew away. Why?" declares the Lord Almighty. "Because of My house, which remains a ruin, while each of you is busy with his own house. Therefore, because of you the heavens have withheld their dew and the earth its crops. I called for a drought on the fields and the mountains, on the grain, the new wine, the oil and whatever the ground produces, on men and cattle, and on the labor of your hands" (Haggai 1:9-11).

God had finally had enough. His priorities were not His people's priorities. So, He withheld in order to get their attention. Zerubbabel was governor of Judah at the time. He was a godly man who sought to do God's will. He listened as the prophet gave these words; then he responded.

Then Zerubbabel son of Shealtiel, Joshua son of Jehozadak, the high priest, and the whole remnant of the people obeyed the voice of the Lord their God and the message of the prophet Haggai, because the Lord their God had sent him. And the people feared the Lord (Haggai 1:12).

Sometimes God has to stir up the spirit of one man to initiate needed change. Zerubbabel was that man. Scriptures say, "The Lord stirred up the spirit of Zerubbabel" (Hag. 1:14). God is stirring up the spirit of a remnant of workplace believers throughout the world today. They are seeing what breaks God's heart, and they're responding. Has God placed the spirit of Zerubbabel in you? Are you one who will make a difference for the Kingdom, or are you concerned about building bigger and better barns? The Lord is calling forth His people in these last days to make a difference. Ask Him what He wants to do through you.

Saturday, May 19, 2007

Building a Solid Foundation

Building a Solid Foundation
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

But everyone who hears these words of Mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand. - Matthew 7:26

There were two kinds of people in the days of Jesus. Some heard the words that Jesus spoke and were awed by His wisdom and understanding, but did nothing about what they heard. Others heard those words and acted on them. Jesus said that those who heard the words but failed to put them into practice were foolish and likened them to building a house on sand. How foolish, indeed, it would be to build a house on sand.

The person who followed what Jesus taught was a person who would be sure to weather life's storms.

Therefore everyone who hears these words of Mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock (Matthew 7:24-25).

You never know how well your house is built until it is tested by the elements. Torrential rains reveal the quality of your roof. Wind and cold reveal how well your home is insulated. Heat and sun reveal the quality of your paint and siding. All these elements reveal whether a solid foundation has been laid to make your home a secure and lasting place to live.

Many of us find that we have given only lip service to God's commands. We are faced with the reality that our foundations are not strong enough to weather life's storms. How do we react when the trials come? Do we fret and worry? Do we take life into our hands? Do we respond inappropriately when we don't get what we want? The Lord uses these times to help us recognize whether our foundations are sand or rock. Ask the Lord today if you have built on His rock. If so, you can be comforted to know that you can weather any storm that may come your way.

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

RANTS

hmmmm...

Now I work with Estee Lauder (The perfume company)
hahaha

Sianz...

This few days have been looking at lots and lots of university.
I wanted to take Psychology.

whhheeeyyyy

James Cook University (Singapore campus)
SMU
NTU
NUS
SIM
Hong Kong University (overseas)

Sianz...

Still considering which one to apply...

Nevermind, I have like one to two years to think about which university will benefit me the most...

hahaha

Sowing in Tears

Sowing in Tears
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy. - Psalm 126:5

The most difficult place to keep moving in faith is the place of extreme pain. Extreme pain, especially emotional pain, can become immobilizing to the human spirit if it is allowed to overcome us. The psalmist tells us there is only one remedy for overcoming painful circumstances that will result in joy. We are to sow in the midst of these times. You cannot do this if you live by feelings alone. It is an act of the will. This act requires that we go outside ourselves in pure faith.

I learned this principle during one of the deepest periods of my life. I had lost much that was dear to me. A mature man in the faith admonished me to reach out to others in spite of my own pain. "Invest in someone else," he said. I did not realize what a place of healing and comfort that would become.

"He who goes out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with him" (Ps. 126:6). Pain can become a source of joy if we take the first step by planting seed. There is a harvest that will come if we sow in the midst of tears.

Overcoming Our Past

Overcoming Our Past
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

Then the Spirit of the Lord came upon Jephthah. - Judges 11:29a

We've all heard stories of individuals who have overcome extreme hardship during their childhood years. Children of alcoholics, orphans who never have parents, loss of parents to a fatal crash, childhood disease - these are all difficult circumstances to overcome.

Jephthah was a man who overcame his obstacles and refused to allow his circumstances to prevent him from becoming great in God's sight. He was born to Gilead, a result of his father's adulterous encounter with a prostitute. Gilead's wife, who had bore more sons, decided to reject Jephthah, and drove him away from their home saying, "You are not going to get any inheritance in our family because you are the son of another woman." Imagine the rejection this young man felt as he was cast away from his own family.

This experience taught Jephthah to become a hardened warrior. Today he probably would have been part of a street gang. As he got older, his reputation as a warrior became known to those in his country, so much so that when the Ammonites made war on Israel, the elders of Gilead went to Jephthah and asked him to be their commander. Jephthah had to fight off those feelings of rejection from previous years.

"Didn't you hate me and drive me from my father's house?" he responded. He overcame his hurt and pain, and responded to the call God had on his life.

It is said that if we were to help the butterfly remove itself from the cocoon, the butterfly would not be strong enough to survive. It is the struggle that prepares the butterfly to become strong enough to fly. Without the struggle in the cocoon, it could not survive as a butterfly.

The Lord prepares each of us in similar ways. Some of our childhoods seem to have been harsh and born from a seemingly unloving God. However, the Lord knows our struggle and will make our life an instrument in His hand if we will follow Him with an upright heart. He does make all things beautiful in His time if we are willing to be patient.

Friday, May 11, 2007

UPDATE LIAO

Here I am back updating.

Now I am once again jobless after my People Association and UOB job.
And had been sick
Bad rashes for more than a week liao.
But after applying the dunno wat lotion by the doctor, better liao.
then fever, whole body no strength.
Gastric, I suppose quite okay bah...
Need to go for my next appointment on the 12 of june.
4 days before my enlistment.

haha
Weak siaz...
hmmm...

this few days had been at home, as rashes bad, fever, and body cannot move...
So, sibei BORING siaz...

need to find something to do soonz...
Dunno...
hmmm...

ok ya, dunno wat to update...
So byebye

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Thursday, April 19, 2007

UPDATE

hello people.

Well update abit so that this shows that I am still alive.
haha

Well...
Life has been SICK for me...

And becoz of sick, I miss out a lot of fun...
Sad...

Anyway Happy birthday to RAINER and SIYUAN.
Sorry I was unable to attend the two gatherings...

On the 16 I went to SGH to visit the gastro.
Given a bagful of medicine and waiting for my next appointment on the 12 of june.
See whether do I need x-rays and watever nonsense...

Currently for the past 1 week plus, my right eye area and forehead area has always been not okay... I could not really bend down or focus onto something. As there will be pain there...
Thinking of visiting the doctor but need $$$ so might wait for a little while first...
Wun die yet. haha

YEsterday receive my letter and I will be enlisting on the 16 June 2007, BMTC school ONE, 10.30am.

Sianz... But dunno yet as I got to check my medical reports to see first...
ahhaa
I miss all of you...
heeeeeee

okok...

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Wanted: Dead or Alive!

Wanted: Dead or Alive!
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms (Eph 6:12).

In the old west it was common to see a poster on the wall of the town jail or post office with a man's picture below the words: Wanted: Dead or Alive! These were the most notorious criminals who posed the greatest danger to society.

Let me ask you a personal question. Is there a "Wanted: Dead or Alive" poster in hell with your name on it? Are you a real danger to hell? Do you cause problems for Satan's legion of demons? Are you pushing back Satan's agenda on planet earth?

Are the unsaved in danger of receiving salvation through you? Will someone receive healing because you dared to pray for them? Will someone's life be impacted because you chose to pray for them in your workplace during a difficult time? Will a city be impacted for Jesus Christ because of you?

Millions of believers sit on the sidelines everyday having no impact on the Kingdom of darkness. Their names will never appear on a Wanted poster in hell because Satan sees that they are no threat. However, God wants you to be a threat to Satan's kingdom.

What are some things you can do that will pose a threat to Satan's agenda? Perhaps you can begin praying for one of Satan's most notorious talk show personalities. Or maybe you are called to visit an elderly home to bring the love of Christ into a lonely place. There are many ways you can earn a reputation in hell.

Are you willing to be a force to be reckoned with by Satan's legions?

fan wei qi - ta mei you cuo

many singers

最初的梦想-范玮琪

没那么爱他)-Fan Wei Qi

你最珍贵(李圣杰 范玮琪)

范玮琪 - 我们的纪念日

范范的纪念日

范玮琪 - 黑白配

些花儿-朴树那

那些花儿-范玮琪

fan wei qi and angela zhang - what if

The Graduate-Level Test: Self-Defense

The Graduate-Level Test: Self-Defense
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman


He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun. - Psalm 37:6

As a believer grows in trusting obedience and love, God often brings a test that seems uncharacteristically cruel. The test: being wrongfully judged by those close to you. It is not for the reactionary. It cannot be passed over by simply gutting it out. Supernatural grace is the only means of passing this one. It is one of those tests the Savior had to experience Himself when being tried by the court of public opinion, the religious community, and the government of His day. His response to the government was silence. His response to the religious establishment was silence at the final judgment. To the rest of His accusers He remained quiet and left vindication to the Father. He lived the commandment He gave to the disciples:

"But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, because He is kind to the ungrateful and wicked" (Luke 6:35).

How do you react when you are accused or mistreated for no reason? Do you listen quietly, or do you justify each and every action? Most of us take pride in doing what is right and expect the same from others, especially our brothers and sisters in the faith. Jesus knew that if you were to be a true follower of His, you would enter this test eventually. It is part of the program. The workplace gives ample opportunity to be wronged, misunderstood, and maligned. When God brings a measured assault against one of His children, it is to find out if he truly believes in the cross. The cross is where each of us is given the opportunity to die to our pride, our reputations, and our ego. When He allows a measured assault upon us, it is to find out if the cross is sufficient. He wants to see if we will seek to rescue ourselves. Jesus said if we die with Him, we will be raised with Him. When God allows satan to bring the measured assault, ask God for the grace to cling to the cross. Let the pride and arrogance that Jesus wants to remove from our lives be crucified. Thank God for the opportunity to be crucified with Christ. Then your righteousness will shine like the noonday sun and the justice of your cause will be in His hands.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

Sianz

sianz sianz sianz sianz

Now very sianz....

Da-ge and da sao eating happily together at burger king.
hahaha

very sianz...

dunno wat to update...

mayb when i reach home then update even more ba..

Thursday, March 15, 2007

sick

It has been quite awhile I haven blog.
Lately busy with Creative Thinking.

Ya, and somehow, health has also been worsen.
Today (I mean yesterday) I nearly knock out.
My gastric problem is back.
I knew it got worst becoz of today.
When at the busstop, I have been controlling my pain.
but i felt that my hands are trembling somehow, and I perspire.
I shd not perspire at that point of time, but wierdly I did.

Then my heart beat has been quite fast lately.
For no reason.

And headache is also another problem.

I know I shd go to the doctor.
But for me, I will say, nevermind.
As now I am in financial crisis, and no time.
No $ and No time, I dun care about my health.
unless I have enuff $.

Medical checkups are expensive.

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Obeying the Spirit of God

Obeying the Spirit of God
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

Now an angel of the Lord said to Philip, "Go south to the road - the desert road - that goes down from Jerusalem to Gaza." - Acts 8:26

Philip was conducting what we might today call a revival meeting. God was blessing the meeting, and many were being healed and delivered from demonic influence. Here is the scene:

Philip went down to a city in Samaria and proclaimed the Christ there. When the crowds heard Philip and saw the miraculous signs he did, they all paid close attention to what he said. With shrieks, evil spirits came out of many, and many paralytics and cripples were healed. So there was great joy in that city (Acts 8:5-8).

And yet, in the midst of this great event, the Holy Spirit spoke to Philip and told him to remove himself and go to a completely different area to speak to one individual. Philip was so sensitive to the directive of the Holy Spirit that he left what would be deemed a successful event to go speak to another - an Ethiopian eunuch. The result of his obedience was that Philip led the eunuch to faith in Christ and baptized him. The Lord then took Philip away supernaturally to another region many miles away.

God's ways of determining where we invest our time and energy often have little to do with results. The danger for each of us is to determine that we are in the center of God's will simply by the success or failure of the events we are involved in. Our plumb line for determining success can be only one thing: obedience. Philip responded in obedience to the direction of the Holy Spirit.

Are you listening to the voice of the Holy Spirit? Has God prompted you to speak, go, or come alongside another? Ask God today to help you hear the Holy Spirit's voice so that you might be used mightily in your workplace.

Monday, March 12, 2007

Understanding the Source of Anger

Understanding the Source of Anger
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

A fool gives full vent to his anger, but a wise man keeps himself under control. - Proverbs 29:11

The workplace can be a pressure-packed world. The demands that are often put on us can bring out things that we never knew were there. Sometimes we begin to think that the source of that pressure is to blame for our response to the pressure. It could be an event, a spouse, a boss, a client, a child, or even a driver who cuts us off in traffic.

I recall responding to a close friend one time, "If you had not done that, I would never have responded that way." Later I learned that this response had little truth to it. We all choose to get angry. No one else is to blame for our anger.

"The circumstances of life, the events of life, and the people around me in life, do not make me the way I am, but reveal the way I am" [Dr. Sam Peeples].

This simple quote has had a profound impact on how I view my anger now. Anger only reveals what is inside of me. I can't blame anyone but me for my response to a situation. I have learned that anger is only the symptom of something else that is going on inside of me. This quote now resides on my refrigerator door as a daily reminder of the truth about my response to life's situations.

It has been said that anger is like the warning panel on the dash of your car. It is the light that tells us something is going on under the hood and we need to find out what is the source of the problem. I discovered that the source of anger is often unmet expectations or personal rights. We believe we are entitled to a particular outcome to a situation. When this doesn't happen, it triggers something in us. At the core of this is fear, often a fear of failure or rejection, fear of what others think, fear of the unknown.

If you struggle with anger, ask God to reveal the source of that anger. Ask Him to heal you of any fears that may be the root of your anger. Ask God to help you take responsibility for your response to difficult situations.

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Suffering for the Salvation of Another

Suffering for the Salvation of Another
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of Me. - Matthew 5:11

Recently, a friend told a true story about one of his closest friends who experienced great suffering for the soul of his persecutor. This man worked on a cargo ship. His boss was the captain. This friend was a committed Christian who shared his faith with others and was a good worker. One day the friend led the sea captain's girlfriend to Christ. The sea captain already hated and ridiculed the Christian worker because of his faith in Christ. When his girlfriend came to Christ, she stopped sleeping with the captain. The captain blamed the Christian man for the change in his girlfriend. One day he entered the restaurant where the Christian man was having lunch. He walked over to his table and began hurling obscenities and began beating him. The Christian man simply tried to defend himself but did not fight back. The captain kept beating him until eventually the man lay on the floor bleeding.

Two men entered the restaurant and saw what was taking place. They jumped the sea captain and took him outside and began beating him. The sea captain was beaten so badly that he needed immediate medical attention. The Christian worker saw the condition of the sea captain, came to his aid, and began helping him. The sea captain was so moved that this man could do this after he had literally beaten him bloody that he began to weep, not understanding what could move a man to have such love in the face of being beaten. The sea captain accepted Jesus at that moment.

The Bible tells us that while we were yet sinners Christ came and paid our penalty so that we might live eternally. Many in the workplace have never known the love of Christ. You might be the only one they ever meet who can introduce them to this love. Ask God to show you how to love the unlovable in your workplace today.

When God Restores What the Locusts Eat

When God Restores What the Locusts Eat
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten - the great locust and the young locust, the other locusts and the locust swarm - My great army that I sent among you. - Joel 2:25

There are seasons in our lives that involve times of famine and times of restoration. Solomon tells us that He has made everything beautiful in its time and that there is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under Heaven. (See Ecclesiastes 3:1,11.)

God brings about both the good and the bad. The seasons of famine have a divine purpose in our lives. They accomplish things that only these hard places can accomplish. But there is a time when those hard places have accomplished their purpose and He begins to restore. God did this with the nation of Israel after a season of famine and devastation.

Be glad, O people of Zion, rejoice in the Lord your God, for He has given you the autumn rains in righteousness. He sends you abundant showers, both autumn and spring rains, as before. The threshing floors will be filled with grain; the vats will overflow with new wine and oil. "I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten - the great locust and the young locust, the other locusts and the locust swarm - My great army that I sent among you. You will have plenty to eat, until you are full, and you will praise the name of the Lord your God, who has worked wonders for you; never again will My people be shamed. Then you will know that I am in Israel, that I am the Lord your God, and that there is no other; never again will My people be shamed" (Joel 2:23-27).

God wants each of us to know that there is a time when He will restore in order to demonstrate His gracious hand in our lives. He is a loving Father who tenderly guides His children through the difficult places. If God has taken you through a time of leanness, know that He is the restorer of that which the locusts have eaten. Wait patiently for Him to bring this about in your life. He will do it.

Saturday, March 10, 2007

Confidence in Numbers

Confidence in Numbers
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

David was conscience-stricken after he had counted the fighting men, and he said to the Lord, "I have sinned greatly in what I have done. Now, O Lord, I beg You, take away the guilt of Your servant. I have done a very foolish thing." - 2 Samuel 24:10

It just seems to be human nature. As we grow in wealth and ability, our confidence moves from complete trust in the Lord to trust in our resources. King David decided one day that he needed to know how many fighting men he had in his army. This was a grievous sin in the nation of Israel. God always made it clear to the nation that He, not their army, was their source. It was against the law of God to number the troops. David's general, Joab, knew the serious nature of such an action.

But Joab replied to the king, "May the Lord your God multiply the troops a hundred times over, and may the eyes of my lord the king see it. But why does my lord the king want to do such a thing?" (2 Samuel 24:3)

Joab knew that David was treading in dangerous waters when he brought up the idea to him. But David had it in his mind that this is what he was going to do. And he did. The result: God judged David for this sin by smiting the nation with a plague that resulted in the loss of 70,000 lives.

Recently, I was having lunch with a former stockbroker who lost everything in the 1987 stock crash in the United States. He made an interesting comment. "You cannot know how to fully trust the Lord in the financial area until you really have to. When I lost everything, I was forced to trust Him when I knew I could not pay my next bill unless God provided. This was the time I learned to trust God. I never had to trust God before I lost my money because I had plenty. We don't willingly enter this level of trust with God."

Ask God today to keep you from trusting in your own resources. Ask Him how to balance trust and blessing from Him this day.