Wednesday, October 24, 2007

MY LAST MYSELF POST HERE...

Somehow I no longer understand myself...

It is not the amount of stress that I am handling now...

As I think it is nothing...

But somehow or rather...
I still can't get over my little past.

I want to get out of it but dunno how...

It had been years...

I really thought I am okay... recovered...
I even keep telling myself I am okay,
deceiving myself...

At times I cant take it...
I dunno...

Maybe I need help this time...

My mind is confused...
Emotion is once again into my life...

This will be the last post that I will post here about my emotion.
I will have a space that I will not disclosed...

Sorry people, I need my private space now on.

Thank you for your understanding.


REGARDS

JACKY WINSON SIM

depression

What is depression?

When doctors talk about depression, they mean the medical illness called major depression. Someone with major depression has symptoms like those listed in the box below nearly every day, all day, for 2 weeks or longer.

If you're depressed, you may also have headaches, other aches and pains, digestive problems and problems with sex. An older person with depression may feel confused or have trouble understanding simple requests.



Symptoms of depression

  • No interest or pleasure in things you used to enjoy
  • Feeling sad or empty
  • Crying easily or crying for no reason
  • Feeling slowed down or feeling restless and unable to sit still
  • Feeling worthless or guilty
  • Weight gain or loss
  • Thoughts about death or suicide
  • Trouble thinking, recalling things or focusing on what you're doing
  • Trouble making everyday decisions
  • Problems sleeping, especially in the early morning, or wanting to sleep all of the time
  • Feeling tired all of the time
  • Feeling numb emotionally, perhaps even to the point of not being able to cry


What causes depression?

Depression seems to be related to a chemical imbalance in the brain that makes it hard for the cells to communicate with one another. Depression also seems to be genetic (to run in families).

Depression can be linked to events in your life, such as the death of someone you love, a divorce or job loss. Taking certain medicines, abusing drugs or alcohol, or having other illnesses can also lead to depression. Depression isn't caused by personal weakness, laziness or lack of willpower.


How is depression diagnosed?

If you're having symptoms of depression, be sure to tell your doctor so you can get help. Don't expect your doctor to be able to guess that you're depressed just by looking at you. The sooner you seek treatment, the sooner the depression will lift.

Once you tell your doctor how you're feeling, he or she may ask you some questions about your symptoms, about your health and about your family history of health problems. Your doctor may also give you a physical exam and do some tests.


How is depression treated?

Depression can be treated with medicines, or a special type of counseling called psychotherapy, or with both.


What about medicines?

Many medicines can be used to treat depression. These medicines are called antidepressants. They correct the chemical imbalance in the brain that causes depression.

Antidepressants work differently for different people. They also have different side effects. So, even if one medicine bothers you or doesn't work for you, another may help. You may notice improvement as soon as 1 week after you start taking the medicine. But you probably won't see the full effects for about 6 to 8 weeks. You may have side effects at first but they tend to lessen after a couple of weeks.

How long will I need medicine?

How long you'll need to take the medicine depends on your depression. Your doctor may want you to take medicine for 4 to 6 months or longer. You need to take the medicine long enough to reduce the chance that the depression will come back. Talk with your doctor about any questions you have about your medicine


What is psychotherapy?

In psychotherapy, you talk with your family doctor, a psychiatrist or a therapist about things that are going on in your life. The focus may be on your thoughts and beliefs or on your relationships. Or the focus may be on your behavior, how it's affecting you and what you can do differently. Psychotherapy often lasts for a limited time, such as 8 to 20 visits.


Will I need to go to the hospital?

Depression can usually be treated through visits to your doctor. Treatment in the hospital may be needed if you have other medical conditions that could affect your treatment or if you're at high risk of suicide.


How long will the depression last?

This depends on how soon you get help. Left untreated, depression can last for weeks, months or even years. The main risk in not getting treatment is suicide. Treatment can help depression lift in 6 to 8 weeks, or less.



Getting through depression

  • Pace yourself. Don't expect to do everything you normally can. Set a realistic schedule.
  • Don't believe all of your negative thinking, such as blaming yourself or expecting to fail. This thinking is part of depression. These thoughts will go away as your depression lifts.
  • Get involved in activities that make you feel good or feel like you've achieved something.
  • Avoid making big life decisions when you're depressed. If you must make a big decision, ask someone you trust to help you.
  • Avoid drugs and alcohol. Both make depression worse. Both can cause dangerous side effects with your antidepressants.
  • Physical activity seems to cause a chemical reaction in the body that may improve your mood. Exercising 4 to 6 times a week for at least 30 minutes each time is a good goal. But even less activity can be helpful.
  • Try not to get discouraged. It will take time for your depression to lift fully.

Suicide

People with depression sometimes think about suicide. This thinking is part of the depression. If you have thoughts about hurting yourself, tell your doctor, friends or family, or call your local suicide hot line, such as the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.

Get help right away. The good news is that there are people who can help you, and depression can be treated.



Reasons to get help for depression

  • Early treatment helps keep depression from getting worse or lasting a long time.
  • Thoughts of suicide are common in people with depression. The risk of suicide is higher if you don't get treatment for your depression. When depression is successfully treated, the thoughts of suicide will go away.
  • Treatment can help you return to your "normal" self, enjoying life.
  • Treatment can help prevent depression from coming back.



Damn it...

I think I am having DEPRESSION.

I hope not...

nvmd...

Sunday, October 14, 2007

chinese quizzzzzz...

1.以下这三种动物,哪一样是你最喜爱的?
(a)猫    (b)鸟    (c)狗
(答案在下面...不要偷看唷...)

Ans: (c)狗

2. 你最喜爱什麼颜色?
(a)粉红色  (b)白色   (c)黑色
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

Ans: )黑色

3.列举一个与你相同性别的人之名字
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

Ans: -someone-

4. 列举一个与你相反性别的人之名字
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

Ans: -someone-

5. 你较喜欢山脉,还是海滩?
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

Ans: 海滩

6. 你喜欢看日出,还是日落?
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

Ans: 日落

7. 由一至十中,你最喜欢哪个数目字?
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

Ans: 6

8. 你最喜欢什麼植物?
(a)红玫瑰  (b)蕨类植物 (c)已经枯萎的植物
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

Ans: (b)蕨类植物

9 你最喜欢哪个季节?
(a)春季   (b)冬季   (c)夏季
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

Ans: (b)冬季

10. 默许两个愿望
(答案在下面...不要偷看...)

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解答:

1.(解答)
(a)猫:你最爱你自己
(b)鸟:你喜欢听你自己的谈话
(c)狗:你把别人看得比自己还重

2.(解答)
(a)粉红色:你是豪放派的人
(b)白色:你是正统派的人
(c)黑色:你是生活在边缘的人

3.(解答)
他/她是你的幸运之星

4.(解答)
你将与他/她成为非常非常亲密的朋友

5.(解答)
(a)山脉:会早婚
(b)海滩:会晚婚

6.(解答)
(a)日出:你是一个似早晨的人且你得到更多
的任务完成
(b)日落:你是一个浪漫的人且你那缓慢地迷
恋的时候到了

7.(解答)
你所选出来的号码代表你在找到真命天子之前
谈过的变爱
次数

8.(解答)
(a)红玫瑰:你的生活是完美的,可是有时候
会多剌而令
人苦恼
(b)蕨类植物:你的生活将是可预言的,且会
稳健平安
(c)已经枯萎的植物:你是一个有病的人,生
活如一滩死水

9.(解答)
(a)春季:你是一个无法自拔的浪漫主义者
(b)冬季:你是一个坚持善良的人
(c)夏季:你是一个对任何事物皆坦率的人

10.(解答)
如果你将此页发给
(a)一个人:你的第一个愿望将会实现
(b)五个人:你的两个愿望皆会实现
(c)十个人或是更多的人:两个愿望将会在两
天内实现。

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Ignore me...

For some reason which I dunno.
I have been feeling not right lately.

A lot of emotions had been gushing within me.
I saw flashback that I always wanted to put down.
For some reason I can't.

I dunno, how much longer can I take it.

At times, I feel like ending it...
But for some reason, I hold back...

I need to breathe...
I wanted to hide myself...

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Fucked

Health haven't been okay.
And more arrows are being shot.

I am tired.
Tired of this arrowing shooting game.

At times like this, my body really cannot take it.
Today I am on MC.
Went to the polyclinic to see the doctor.

Then he was like saying, ur heatbeat is fast.
I was like saying okay.

At first he wanted to refer me to hospital but I ask dun need.
As tmr I will have my medical appointment at National Heart Centre.

I dislike the way that I am now.
I dislike the things that I do.

Even if I am doing video or 3d now, I think I will also dislike it.
As it is because I am just doing it for the sake of doing.
I dun wan to be a slave that follows idea.

Fucked it.
I am a guy who cares not the rank but quality.

My body is very sick and tired.

I dun noe whether how long this war will end.
I do not know.

I wish that it will end early with an ending that I wanted.

But in this organization, I believe otherwise.
But no matter what.

Unless now is the end of my life,
I will still continue to fight my way thru this war.

Fucked, why am I so emo.
damn it.