firstly i must apologized to everyone,

sorry as i have been very emo these few days or even weeks...

I am not myself at all...

sorry ppl..

well, week 15 is gonna b over soonz...

i dunno wat happen to me....

but I have become more emo, pissed... and i can't control myself... sorry ppl...

But i will try to change...

at least i will try...

hahahaha

well one more to kill, and that is LaOFi...

I have no more energy to continue...

no one actually understands the real me...
well, i also dun understand myself anymore...

hahaha

well today i din go sch...
actually plan to go sch for laofi then to my sec sch...

but I am too sick to get up...
My body aches, my head is spinning...

I am not well since ystdy...

but nvmd...

I dunno why am I in design sch...
I shd be studying my business studies...

wat am I doing in IMD?

my mom has been nagging at me...

she keeps saying, see la... u quit ur business studies or even ur JC studies just for IMD and it cause u to be so pissed... and continues.............................................

I need my space to breathe...

I know that i am rather better when comes to commerce...
my friends also say so...

but i wanted to be happy...

i am trying to be happy...

can u see me smiling???

heehee

well, i dunno wat to blog...

as i am tired...

wahahahaz

FINALLY...

InMA is over for the moment...

well, y i say for the moment as i am not confident enuff to pass my InMA...

I fear that i might fail and take sup...

I dun wan...

now under this type of stress: FEAR...

hahahaz

well InMA wasn't tooooooooooooooo bad....

Just very bad...

My InMA sux.. that one i know...

But wat's done is done... so too late...

now wat i can only say, REGRETS...

lots of regrets...

my body is tired... my mind is tired...

my back hurts...

I feel like sleeping but yet dun wan to sleep...

I m deep down under the ground, yes... I am

I am being buried deep down...

my soul is trapped there...

wahahhaz

nonsense...

heehee

very as usual Jacky-san is just a little crappy...

as this is me... and to all... I am not ah beng...

I am just a boiboi...

heehee

and me signing off here, as InMA is real bad...

=(

T.T

heehee

and just one more submission to go...

I DUN WAN...

I WAN MY HOLIDAY...

I WAN MY SLEEP...

AS now my energy is drained.. becoz of InMA... heehee

but thanks to Yong... as he really makes me understand how a website works...
and the design process is just out there to kill.... hahaz

anyway thanks.... for all the things you have taught me...

I learn quite a lot...

from sem 1: a hand code website for mmfund due to dun even know how to use dreamweaver... and i also get help from my friends and so that time i only did 30% of the work....

But now sem 3: InMA... I know how to build a website...

well i think i will play ard some more, so that I can learn more...

but i am still a person more towards video and animations... so no websites for me plz....

heehee...

well sorry deardear... as ystdy i am very stressed up... at the last min, my things are quite screwed...

so i cannot control my patience, temper, watever...

and i just lose my temper...

sorry deardear...

but u r in wrong too...
wahahahhahahahhhahahahhaz

well life is like a roller coaster,

yes indeed...

I have seen too much bout life...

can I stop?

dun ask me y I say; CAN I STOP?

but this just appear in my head...

maybe i will need to think thru many things...

a lot i suppose...

hahahaz

well sometimes i think that i dun share my piece of mind with ppl... heehee...

as sometimes i think that wats the use ...

it will only make more ppl's emotion go ..................................................................

I will still be like me...

heehee....

hahaha

nowadays my lappie have songs that ranges from oldie all the way to now... hahaha

and i also have children song...

heehee

I love them... as i wanna be a kid...

m i toooooooooo OLD to be one...

well i am not old... I refuse to admit... wahahahaha

well finally InMA done... woooohooooooooooooo...

I am so HAPPY...
smile...

wahahaha

okok now only leaving with LaoFi

heehee

and if all done i am FREE ...

wooooooohooooooooooooooooooooooo....

My Redeemer Lives
Hillsongs

I know he rescued my soul
His blood has covered my sin
I believe
I believe

My shame His taken away
My pain is healed in his name
I believe
I believe

I'll raise a banner
'Cause my Lord has conquered the grave

My Redeemer Lives
My Redeemer Lives
My Redeemer Lives
My Redeemer Lives

You Lift my burdens
I'll rise with You
I'm dancing on this mountain top to see your kingdom come

ALL DAY

Verse 1:
I don't care what they say about me
It's alright, alright
I don't care they think about me
It's alright, they'll get it one day

Pre-Chorus
I love you, I'll follow you
You are my, my life
I will read my bible and pray
I will follow you all day

Verse 2:
I don't care what it costs anymore
Cos' you gave it all and I'm following you
I don't care what it takes anymore
No matter what happens I'm going your way

Pre-Chorus

Chorus:
All Day
All Day now
All Day

Verse 1

Pre-Chorus

Chorus

Bridge:
Anyone around can see
just how good you've been to me
For all my friends that don't know you
I pray that you would save them too

Chorus

We Go Together
GREASE

We go together, like rama, lama, lama, kadingy, kading-a-dong
Remember forever, as shoowop, shoowally, wally, yippity,
boom-de-boom
Chang-chang, changadee-chang-chibop, that's the way it should
be, wahoo,yeah

We're one of a kind, like yip, ayip, ayip, shoowa, sha wooly-woo
Our names are signed abooglde,
booglede,booglede,booglede,shooby,shoowop,shabop
Chang-chang, changadee-chang-chibop, we'll always be like
one,wa-wa-wa-one

When we go out at night, and stars are shining bright, up in the
skiesabove
Or at the highschool dance, where you can find romance
Baby, it might be love

rama lama lama kadingy,kading-a-dong
shoowop, shoowally,wally yippity boom-de-boom
chang-chang, changadee-chang-chibop
yip, ayip,ayip, ayip, shoowa, sha wooly-woo
booglede, boogldee, booglede,booglede, shooby shoowop, shabop

AWOMP BAMMA LOOMA AWOMP BAM BOOM!

We're for each other, like awomp bama looma awomp bam boom
Just like my brother, nanananana yippity, dippty doo
Chang-chang, changadee-chang-chibop, we'll always be together,
wahoo,yeah

We'll always be together (repeats out)

"Wake Me Up When September Ends"
Green Day

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends

Superman
Five For Fighting

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird...i’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd...but don’t be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won’t you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away...away from me
It’s all right...you can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy...or anything...

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me
Inside me
Yeah, inside me
Inside of me

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
I’m only a man
Looking for a dream

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
And it’s not easy, hmmm, hmmm, hmmm...

Its not easy to be me

Better Man
Robbie Williams

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience
'Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been told
To take the blame

Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Once you've found that lover
You're homeward bound
Love is all around
Love is all around

I know some have fallen
On stony ground
But Love is all around

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doin' all I can
To be a better man

Welcome to my life 
Simple Plan

Do you ever feel like breaking down? 
Do you ever feel out of place? 
Like somehow you just don't belong 
And no one understands you 

Do you ever want to run away? 
Do you lock yourself in your room? 
With the radio on turned up so loud 
That no one hears you screaming 

No you don't know what it's like 
When nothing feels alright 
You don't know what it's like
To be like me 

To be hurt, to feel lost 
To be left out in the dark 
To be kicked when you're down 
To feel like you've been pushed around 
To be on the edge of breaking down 
And no one's there to save you 
No you don't know what it's like 
Welcome to my life 

Do you wanna be somebody else? 
Are you sick of feeling so left out? 
Are you desperate to find something more 
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate? 
Are you sick of everyone around? 
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies 
While deep inside you're bleeding 

No you don't know what it's like 
When nothing feels alright 
You don't know what it's like
To be like me 

To be hurt, to feel lost 
To be left out in the dark 
To be kicked when you're down 
To feel like you've been pushed around 
To be on the edge of breaking down 
And no one's there to save you 
No you don't know what it's like 
Welcome to my life 

No one ever lied straight to your face 
And no one ever stabbed you in the back 
You might think I'm happy 
But I'm not gonna be ok 
Everybody always gave you what you wanted 
You never had to work
It was always there 
You don't know what it's like 
What it's like 

To be hurt, to feel lost 
To be left out in the dark 
To be kicked when you're down 
To feel like you've been pushed around 
To be on the edge of breaking down 
And no one's there to save you 
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like) 

To be hurt 
To feel lost 
To be left out in the dark 
To be kicked 
When you're down 
To feel like you've been pushed around 
To be on the edge of breaking down 
And no one's there to save you 
No you don't know what it's like 
Welcome to my life 

Welcome to my life 
Welcome to my life 

week 14 flies...

now is coming to week 15

shitz...

InMA is 50% done... Tuesday 9am submission...
need to burn out to a CD, then put in CD sleeves... then need to do up my development folder and put it in evelope together with my final piece...
ahzzzzz....

after InMA will be LaoFi....

hahahahaz

i am high on stress...
I am suffocating with Stress...

I dying...

SAVE ME...

bye bye... back to my coffin and into my grave...

InMA is a killer...

It is killing me silently and slowly...

I dun mind just die instantly...

but InMA is like torturing u first until u die...

arghs.....

I dunno but i took this with flash and just at the playground and it looks cool...

Bu shuang...

hahahz

heehee... me and deardear lah...

week 14

Mon- jap (done)
Tues- P2 (done)
Wed-video editing (done)
Thurs-audio (done)
Fri- ching InMA and go school to watch laofi.

Week 15

Mon- diedie must finish InMA.
Tues- 9am InMA submission and prsentation. So must reach sch at 8am. JUST IN CASE...
Wed- do Laofi
Thurs- do Laofi
Fri- Submit laofi ONLINE...





I swear Design school is crazy...
Designers are Superman and women...

battery running flat soonz...

InMA... InMA...
I need some guidance...

Week 14

Mon jap (over)
Tues P2 (over)
Wed video editing (over)
Thurs audio (soon)
Fri watch laofi

week 15
Mon ----
Tues InMA (i hope soon)
Wed---
Thurs ---
Fri Laofi (soon soon soon)

now is 5.15am,

and i am still awake...

here's Jacky-san doing a live telecast at Chris hse...

hey ya chris hse...
and now only me and eugene are awake...
abel and chris have already knockout...

I can't knock out as 6.30 need to reach sch...
I suppose...

hahaha

so enjoy...

heehee

Week 14

Mon- Jap(done)
Tues-p2 (done)
Wed-Video editing (done)
Thurs-Audio (not yet)
Fri- no submission (but come sch do laofi)

Week15
mon- No submission (but diediedie must finish InMA)
Tues- InMA (not yet)
Wed- no submission
Thurs-no submission
Fri-LaoFi

HOLIDAYS...

Week 14

Monday- Japanese ok le...
Tuesday- P2 presentation shoot until like siao but ok le.... InMA-ing
Wednesday- submission of Video editing, I done liao la... and maybe camp overnight for audio....=( but InMA-ing
Thursday- Submission of audio... InMA-ing
Friday- come school watch laofi in order to do laofi, and InMA-ing...
Saturday- InMA-ing....
Sunday- Church and InMA-ing

Week 15
Monday- InMA diedie must finish... if not really die.... So cannot InMA-ing anymore...
Tuesday- wake up early as submission of InMA... yea, dun need InMA-ing liao...
Wednesday- do laofi
Thursday-do laofi
Friday- I plan to submit my laofi paper... so diediedie must finish...

ONWARDS.....
Holiday... wheeeeyyyyyyy....

Find JoB...
and maybe go malaysia with my old buddies....

and rot till sem 4.....

wheeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyy.....

I love InMA...

as now my layout rox...

wheeeeeeeyyyyy....

So Yong, I love Uuuuuuuuuuuuurrrrrrrrrrrr module...

But I m not going to take any more websites modules...

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyyyy....

But i will nv know....

=(

Why must there be InMA...

I hate InMA,
my layout kenna shoot again...

sianz....

nvmd, I will jia you de...
maybe will use back my old layout...

easier to code...

Week 14
Monday Japanese Role play (well done, as over liao and i am happy... I miss Shigeta- san)
Tuesday IMD P2 presentation. (later and i dunno how or wat will happen)
WEdnesday submission of VIDEO EDITING and dun worry, done... maybe camp overnight to do audio post... also do some InMA
Thursday submission of audio post production... continue doing InMA
Friday going back to sch to watch Laofi final movie... as need to write about it...I quite like the story as it follows the bible... continue doing InMA
Saturday continue doing InMA, then evening got care group... okok I stop saying cell group liao... heehee...
Sunday BS, Church... woohoooooooo then InMA again...

Week 15
Monday Last check on InMA...
Tuesday submission of InMA...
Wednesday, start writing laofi...
Thursday, continue laofi...
Friday, continue laofi.... or submission of laofi via emailing...(if not)
Saturday, continue laofi.... then care group
Sunday BS, church, laofi...

Week 16
Monday if i din submit on week 15 friday, i will have to go sch b4 12 to submit laofi....

----------------HOLIDAYS, and I will try to find a job... best is apple centre... ------------------

woohooooooooooooo....

Happy Birthday to BOSS...

not HUGO BOSS...

But our BOSS, Stanley Lai Zhen Yu

wahhahahaz

18 lor....

OLD OLD LIAO...

and BOSS, must be always happy and dun stress urself...

wheeeeyyyyyyyy....

wahahahhaz

the end

why am i in design?

why am i in poly?

why can't i be a farmer?

life isn't that simple anymore...
(Z)
I miss those days...

I happen to know that I m giving myself too much stress...

and now I tend to explode...

Y can't life be as simple as my sec sch years...

I love that lifestyle...
everyday is so fun...

well I am a business orientated person, not very design i suppose...
but i am in a design sch...

I suck at everything i suppose...

becoz i sux the more i want to improve and the more stress i give to myself...

I am collasping...

I dunno how long can I stand...
I dun wan to have such a lifestyle...

But I know that is my life...
times that i can feel peace is in church, with my deardear, and with my friends...

but still...

LORD i need your guidance...

Faith is having a strong feeling of confidence, trust and optimism. Everyone has been grifted with natural abilities and these are the keys to future success in life. When we have faith we can surmount any challenge, rise above mediocrity and excel.

Hope is positive , certain and free from all selfishness. Because we have faith in our country, our school and ourselves we have hope of a bright future.

Charity means we hope that others will also be the receipients of good things. Charity demands action on our part to reach out for those less fortunate and privileged than us, meeting needs in selfless expression of love for our fellow friends.

Hope cannot exist apart from Faith, and Charity cannot be excerised without Hope. These are the three things that endure and together they compromise the way of our life.

Once a Damaian always a Damaian...

Taken from my old friend blog...
if you r a damaian b4 , u will agree...

I love those old days

IMD P2 (finally done)
IMD P2 presentation. - oh no, we r the first gp to present... shitz and it is on tues (week 14)

Japanese Role play - i think i am screwed, being in theatre productions for 5 ++ yrs... I am still screwed as this is in jap and is on monday(week14)

Language of Film- I dunno... dunno wat movie to write yet, but submission on week 15...

Video editing- finish my video, sound, story boards, scripts, now only need to do logging... arghs.. submission on week 14 or 15 huh???

Audio Post Production- I really dunno... Dun ask me...

InMA1- well have my layout le... mon or tues shall consult YONG again... and then do linking... and done... but stress over this webbie, as he will fail me... die die must pass as i dun wanna SUP paper................ (week 15)

lazy boiboi,
u better wake up now... today is the end of week 13 or the start of week 14 le...
dun be lazy...
I know you miss ur sleep, miss ur deardear, miss all the fun...
bear with it as 1 or 2 more weeks...
Jia you...

arghs......

i can feel the stress...
sem 1 - 9 nites straight no sleep...
sem 2- buyer behaviour screwed like no other business...
sem 3- break down twice in sch as stress is evil... and get pissed easily... and i need to do a lot of reflection... as i am very hot tempered... bad mood this sem... and this sem i really throw all my emotions.... arghs................

I dun wanna STRESS...
I want to play...

I need to breathe...

But i know that heavenly father, U are around...

I will like to share with u ppl, my church brother msg: Your project is also God's work. Bro, so DO YOUR BEST! and glorify Him in what you do...

hahaz thanks bro, this is what I am doing...
I will also Jia you de...

hahhahahahaz

Maybe brothers and sisters from church keep on seeing the sleepy me and were shocked by the amount of projects I am handling, they send me this msg to encourage me...

But I will jia you de... As I am energizer, "Never say DIE" wahahhahahz

and thanks for all the prayers....
Thank you lord for also answering 99.5% of my prayer...
Hugz...

and thanks to deardear, who at this point of time, the busiest in my life, gives me encouragement, and also accompany me... and thanks deardear...

Hughug and muack...

thanks everyone for all the things u have done for me...
I love you... yes all of YOU...

Which Battle Royale character are you? by liz.

today jacky-san is very sianz...

tired...

sleep too much (which i am not suppose to)(well 8 hrs of sleep for now = sleep too much)

and my mind is not functioning properly...

my body is tired...

my mental is running low...

my head is spinning...

m i sick?

well i can't afford to fall sick...

So i will still be strong...

heehee...

today is a sian day for me...

I have been staring at my com for hours...

and all of a sudden i feels like changing my webbie layout again...

U guys will confirm say siaoz ahz...

but i dunno lor...

well, maybe if the new layout that i created is chiou.... then i use it lor...

No harm trying....

and i m sleepy...

hahaz

=)

Me lying on deardear lap.
hahaz

Friday...

didn't sleep at thursday nite...
friday early morning... Cannot make it leh...
Knock out...
at 7am... good nitez... although it shd b good morning...

slept thru all the way to 3 plus... and continue lying on my bed till 4 plus...
Shit... forgot today got audio thingy to do...

then bathe then go out...
to have my hair cut...
dun comment... as it sux i know...
then go buy dinner for jamie...

reach sch at 6.30 like that, then met jamie dear and went to sound rm...
Deardear eat the char siew rice, while i slack over there, as i dunno wat to help...

hahaz

then chris brought meihua grandma to sound rm...
they r wierd wierd de...
ya, deardear and me agree to this...

hahaz

then at 9.. leave sound rm...
we thought that grandpa and grandma left early liao lor...
at the end they r still around...

and some wierd things i will not say if not grandpa will kill me...
But deardear and I giggle on that...
wahahahaz

then deardear and I went to Marrybrown to eat...
sit on the swing thingy...
and eat...
I fold paper airplane for deardear...
then i also drawdraw...

hahhahaz

then we went to take bus...
then we went to playground...
this time round is another playground...

have a lot fun with deardear there...

hahahhhahaz
not telling u wat happen...

but I am happy to be with deardear...

heehee
and then we went to the busstop and my bus come leh then say bye to deardear...

and now i m blogging this entry...

heehee

well today is a screwed up day...

morning i go some InMA and i come to sch late. 9am class i come at around 9.50am.
Then sorry my audio ppl, I am late as usual.

and we didn't do anything.
hahaz

I am sleepy...
and feeling stressed up...

dun ask me why

then 11 plus went up to room 06-06...
today that room is scary...

my group start on the P2 and submission is today and we r only 80% done...
do u know the stress.

in my mind is the clock ticking...
I am totally awake that time, as i know that we dun have much time to waste...

Sorry guys, today i am just feeling stressed and i think that my attitude is very bad today...
sorry...

well a tired body plus a tired mind cannot work well...
hahaz

everything is so screwed...
after effects not working...

and RUSH RUSH RUSH...

I did break down today ...
ya only for 5 mins...
that is y i went out of 06-06.

as i need to breathe...
but it odesn't help...

u know u can feel the stress.
I am not emotionally strong.
thus i break down...

my first time break down bcoz of project.

after 3.30pm... our video still not ok... as the sound is SCREWED...
we r late liao...

but heng ahz...
sharon still accept it...

and now we got to rush out the final one and the rushes and submit to her by next week...

Thank you sharon and gail...

only after we submit.
we can feel the lightness, u feel lighter...

you finally can breathe...

this is F***ing stress...

P2 is a killer...

it drained all my energy...
hahaz

then i finally edited the credits and add in music le
hahaz

dun worry my p2 ppl...
heehee

and then spend the night with deardear...
at playground near her hse...

heehee... not gonna tell u what happen...
well just being naughty...
wahahhahaz
shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh............

I am a GOOD boi...
heehee
I am happy that i can still have time for you...
Muacks...

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

hahaz
as i shy le...

well, HAPPY BIRTHDAY eunice aunty...
hahaz
well, dun think we forget about ur 18th birthday...
oh well maybe 80... hahahahahaz

grow old liao... = more mature...
dun b so childish liao, ok?

hahaz

enjoy being 18, aunty...
as this is once in a lifetime...

and byez and HAPPY BIRTHDAY...

well, the emo jacky-san is back... maybe due to stress...
I am lost, trapped within my little world...
Lord, I needed more strength to continue surviving...

well, i have been thinking alot these few days...
maybe deardear will get angry over me...
hahaz

well, in my heart there's 4 doors, 1 for jesus, 1 for my mom, 1 for that special person in my life and now the last room is already occupied by deardear...

I have tried to forget about the past but i dunno why i feel that i am still stuck...
but at least now i have a direction or goal as deardear is in my heart too...

well as i said b4: that special person said b4, 1 day i will leave u forever and now she really leaves me forever as i dun even have a chance to visit her anymore...
I dunno y my life seems to b so drama...

but i know that, that special day which is the number 5 year, coming soon, i will send u a letter...
actually quite dumb as i m sending a dead person letter...
hahaz

I know that you are happy as i manage to accept and welcome another love into my heart...
hahaz
well, i takes me many years to recover...

but it is really hard and tough ...
but too bad i will never forget u as if i really forget u totally, my deardear will also scold me for being heartless...
rite? deardear???

hahaz
well, life is really hard...

deardear, now i think u know why when crossing the road, I held onto ur hands tight tight liao...
as i can't afford to lose you too.

I have already lost1 so u cannot leave me...
if not i will follow u to another world...

well people u may say that i am mad.
but really deardear i dun wanna lose u...

just say that i am selfish...

thanks deardear for accompany boiboi these 2 days till late nite...
hahaz

I really wish that everyday u can accompany me till latelate wor...
hahaz

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well, a word for grandpa, NO WAY... I am not going to sit on that reverse bungee thingy that bounce up and down 360 degree, and within that few secs, I can't feel my heart beats...

Grandpa, if u want to go again, can... we shall see u and grandma go up to the skies...
REACH FOR THE SKIES...
hahaz

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I pray for all my friends that everyone will be fine and happy... smile more people...

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I miss u....

and to deardear, I miss u too...
but i am glad that u r by my side...
dun leave boiboi alone wor...

as i dun wanna go back to my past, although i will still remember that special person...

and deardear, u must eat, dun keep skipping ur meals, as bad for health, and do sleep early...
as u need to rest more if not u will fall sick...

kkz?

and love you...

boiboi need to have more sleep...
boiboi need to have a long break...
boiboi need to relax a little bit...

boiboi need gerger to always be by his side...(heehee)

boiboi needs energy and strength to continue...

heehee

boi boi very tired... very stressed...
I need a lot of rest...

week 15 can you dun come so soon.
wait till i finish all my assignments and projects then come, ok?

well impossible...
hahaz

well, i think i will be finishing my InMA layouts soonz... but now i got to study Japanese...
as monday got tests...
sianz

i dun want all these...
I wan rest...
I wan to sleep...

I want to spend more time with deardear... heehee

well, now i get pissed very often and easily...
and i get emo...

but i think i still like lalalala lalalala elmo song...

sorry boiboi feels lame...
hahaz

i need more energy to chiong all the way to week 15...
as i am dying...
heehee

kz... i need to go study leh...

byez...

hello people...

I am really bored NOW...

noone in sch...

and the sch is dead...

wahahhaz

well, a little update..

ystdy fireworks is nice...

and blar blar blar...
well too long so i not gonna tell u...
wahahhaaz

i am evil, i know... I am always...

heehee

then today go for InMA and it is ok... nvmd i think i am changing to a more me layout soonz that is more kiddy and also more abstract...

hahaz

then go for video editing class and guess wat i have complete my work...

heehee

and to lecturer YONG,
hello...
hahaz chris tells me that it is U in the msn... and stop being so kiddy...
wahahhaz

well no i dun think it is kiddy but lame...

heehee...
well, and rest well...

and to others...
I AM REALLY BORED SO I M NOW DOING MY INMA...

hahahahaz

happy national day

and dear, happy to b with u again.

woohooo

sorry for the last time, and now i'll be selfish to keep u all for my own...

hahahz

well today i wake up late so i skip church. sorry lord...

well, yesterday is great...

went for FOP with brothers and sisters from BLC.

well, FOP is great...

can feel GOD's presence...
It is a party for all christians... A service where everyone from different local churches come together, to pray, to worship, to glorify and praise GOD for what he have done for us...

I learn alot from REV. Colin Dye.

and hillsongs and delirious songs are great...

I did drop tears..
as God touch me once again...

Hallelujah...

Praise you...

today went to festival of praise...

it rox...

Hillsongs and delirious..
hahaz

i luv it...

praise u lord...

well,

after a nite of deep thinking...

I finally come to a decision...

I will try and forget you and get a new life out...

maybe this is what you want to see..

Artist: Simple Plan Lyrics
Song: Perfect Lyrics

Hey Dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according
To plan?
Do you think I’m wasting
My time doing things I
Wanna do?
But it hurts when you
Disapprove all along


And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can’t pretend that
I’m alright
And you can’t change me


‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect


I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be
My hero?
All the days
You spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don’t
Care anymore


And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can’t stand another fight
And nothing’ alright


‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect


Nothing’s gonna change
The things that you said
Nothing’s gonna make this
Right again
Please don’t turn your back
I can’t believe it’s hard
Just to talk to you
But you don’t understand


‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect


‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect

well i really ask myself...

M I happy?

yes I am happy with my walk with lord...

but when i happen to be emotionally affected...
i will really ask this question.

as my answer is No...

wat is happy or how to be really happy?

i dunno but i know that it has been a long time i haven feel happy...

well, i really dunno...

i am back to old self of a person who keeps everything to myself...
I dun share my problems or troubles liao...













blank as i dunno...

hahaz... scary....

hantu...

hahahahhahahaz

well that is vic...

scary rite

there's a band : the throb

they are real cool ...

music played: FUSION

earthquake ahz

believe in Jesus...
he loves us...

Stress!!!

do ppl really do well under stress?
do ppl grow after they know wat is stress?

well, i really dunno...
where m i going on with my life???
wo zhen de bu zhi dao...
hahaz

little jacky is still searching...
i have been searching for 19 years and i am still searching as no answer...
Lord you answered 90% of my prayers but where's the 10%...

hahahaz

well i am just being ... i dunno... i need to breathe In.... and Out....
In and Out....

I wanna really enjoy myself but this is not the time...
i hate stress...

Stress is satan... U sucks......... U sux..... WTF....

hahhahaz

well, i am old and young... wahahhahaz...

well, I m missing once again... I know something is missing... as a few months bad something worst affects my mind again... well i got to admit that i am pretending... hahaz

everytime, i will ask M I =) ?

But i cannot or dunno how to answer...

today or i shd say ystdy Chris says that i got to put down all lot of things... But some things are hard to put down... I really wish but things get worst...

i am not telling anyone , i think so...
i will just burry it....

well dun worry, this jacky is still jacky-san....

i am not toking bout it.... hahahz