well, the emo jacky-san is back... maybe due to stress...
I am lost, trapped within my little world...
Lord, I needed more strength to continue surviving...

well, i have been thinking alot these few days...
maybe deardear will get angry over me...
hahaz

well, in my heart there's 4 doors, 1 for jesus, 1 for my mom, 1 for that special person in my life and now the last room is already occupied by deardear...

I have tried to forget about the past but i dunno why i feel that i am still stuck...
but at least now i have a direction or goal as deardear is in my heart too...

well as i said b4: that special person said b4, 1 day i will leave u forever and now she really leaves me forever as i dun even have a chance to visit her anymore...
I dunno y my life seems to b so drama...

but i know that, that special day which is the number 5 year, coming soon, i will send u a letter...
actually quite dumb as i m sending a dead person letter...
hahaz

I know that you are happy as i manage to accept and welcome another love into my heart...
hahaz
well, i takes me many years to recover...

but it is really hard and tough ...
but too bad i will never forget u as if i really forget u totally, my deardear will also scold me for being heartless...
rite? deardear???

hahaz
well, life is really hard...

deardear, now i think u know why when crossing the road, I held onto ur hands tight tight liao...
as i can't afford to lose you too.

I have already lost1 so u cannot leave me...
if not i will follow u to another world...

well people u may say that i am mad.
but really deardear i dun wanna lose u...

just say that i am selfish...

thanks deardear for accompany boiboi these 2 days till late nite...
hahaz

I really wish that everyday u can accompany me till latelate wor...
hahaz

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well, a word for grandpa, NO WAY... I am not going to sit on that reverse bungee thingy that bounce up and down 360 degree, and within that few secs, I can't feel my heart beats...

Grandpa, if u want to go again, can... we shall see u and grandma go up to the skies...
REACH FOR THE SKIES...
hahaz

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I pray for all my friends that everyone will be fine and happy... smile more people...

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I miss u....

and to deardear, I miss u too...
but i am glad that u r by my side...
dun leave boiboi alone wor...

as i dun wanna go back to my past, although i will still remember that special person...

and deardear, u must eat, dun keep skipping ur meals, as bad for health, and do sleep early...
as u need to rest more if not u will fall sick...

kkz?

and love you...