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Wierdly enuff,

Wierd emotions or feelings are with me once again...
I think FYP is indeed a depressing one...

That it might make me feel into depression once again...
lolz...

the symptons are :
it is sufficient to have either of these symptoms in conjunction with five of a list of other symptoms over a two-week period. These include:

• Feelings of overwhelming sadness and/or fear, or the seeming inability to feel emotion (emptiness).
• A decrease in the amount of interest or pleasure in all, or almost all, daily activities.
• Changing appetite and marked weight gain or loss.
• Disturbed sleep patterns, such as insomnia, loss of REM sleep, or excessive sleep (Hypersomnia).
• Psychomotor agitation or retardation nearly every day.
• Fatigue, mental or physical, also loss of energy.
• Intense feelings of guilt, helplessness, hopelessness, worthlessness, isolation/loneliness and/or anxiety.
• Trouble concentrating, keeping focus or making decisions or a generalized slowing and obtunding of cognition, including memory.
• Recurrent thoughts of death (not just fear of dying), desire to just "lie down and die" or "stop breathing", recurrent suicidal ideation without a specific plan, or a suicide attempt or a specific plan for committing suicide.
• Feeling and/or fear of being abandoned by those close to one.

Other symptoms often reported but not usually taken into account in diagnosis include:

• Self-loathing.
• A decrease in self-esteem.
• Inattention to personal hygiene.
• Sensitivity to noise.
• Physical aches and pains, and the belief these may be signs of serious illness.
• Fear of 'going mad'.
• Change in perception of time.
• Periods of sobbing.
• Possible behavioral changes, such as aggression and/or irritability.

lol...
So do you have DEPRESSION?

I might...

Should I go to a doctor?
lolz...

maybe...
At times, I take things too hard on myself...
Is it true?
This is what a friend of mine told me...

But if I dun, I got to ask myself, will I ever succeed?

I am losing myself...
I am not me...

Who am I?

I am just tired...
Tired about everything...

I have lived enuff...
But it is not satisfying...

At times, I wanted to end it, but I find no courage...

At times, that I want to really do nothing, I ended up doing more things...
Is this life?

Is my life going to be like that?

I want to be simple...
but I know there's a answer to this, and that is:
IMPOSSIBLE.

I am not born simple...
So my life will never be simple...

And this world makes it even more complicated...

I wish I am not here...